I lost my precious Jackson Tuesday morning
between 5-6 a.m. He went outside with his 2
brothers and when I went back out to get them,
Jackson wasn't with them. I went around the
corner of the house and there he laid in the
road dead. I can't even remember being this
sad or feeling so much pain. He was such a
sweet boy. He and his 2 brothers were a matched
set. They all look alike and it is hard seeing
them without their brother. When I came home
yesterday, they were both laying at his grave.
That breaks my heart even more. I feel so many
different things right now. I am angry that he
is gone and so sad that I can't see him or hold
him again. He would look at you with his little
gold eyes with so much love that you just wanted
to kiss him forever. I know that this pain will
start to subside, but there is also a part of me
that doesn't want it too. Once I start feeling
better, than he will start to slip away from my
mind as often and I don't want that to happen.
I haven't felt this helpless in a long time and
I hurt physically I miss him so much. It is good
to know that othre people feel this way though
because I was thinking that I was a little crazy
for feeling so strongly. Everyone isn't quite as
understanding about this sort of thing as the people
here seem to be. God Bless you all.
between 5-6 a.m. He went outside with his 2
brothers and when I went back out to get them,
Jackson wasn't with them. I went around the
corner of the house and there he laid in the
road dead. I can't even remember being this
sad or feeling so much pain. He was such a
sweet boy. He and his 2 brothers were a matched
set. They all look alike and it is hard seeing
them without their brother. When I came home
yesterday, they were both laying at his grave.
That breaks my heart even more. I feel so many
different things right now. I am angry that he
is gone and so sad that I can't see him or hold
him again. He would look at you with his little
gold eyes with so much love that you just wanted
to kiss him forever. I know that this pain will
start to subside, but there is also a part of me
that doesn't want it too. Once I start feeling
better, than he will start to slip away from my
mind as often and I don't want that to happen.
I haven't felt this helpless in a long time and
I hurt physically I miss him so much. It is good
to know that othre people feel this way though
because I was thinking that I was a little crazy
for feeling so strongly. Everyone isn't quite as
understanding about this sort of thing as the people
here seem to be. God Bless you all.