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- Jun 11, 2013
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I'm still trying to figure out how I'm supposed to move forward when such a huge part of my life is gone forever.
I've been very lucky in life, and only seldom lost a relative I cared for. Losing Winter was a pain I was totally unprepared for. Logically I knew I was going to hurt, but in the end I had forgotten something could hurt so, so much. It feels like I've woken to a World that is fundamentally Wrong, and will never be Right again now that she can't be in it.
But we're a strange species, us humans. Winter's passing has left a deep, nasty scar on my heart. But if you peeled that scar open you'd find almost 16 years of love, laughter and some of the best times in my life. I live with Chronic Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Winter helped make my life better in every way. She walked with me through some of the most difficult periods of my life, sometimes it's probably more accurate to say she carried me through them. I have a hard time imaging life without her.
I wouldn't trade away one second of my life with Winter to dull this pain, and I would do it all again if asked.
I love you Winter, with all my heart. I hope that you always know that, through your whole life, and wherever you are now. I love you. I miss you.
I've been very lucky in life, and only seldom lost a relative I cared for. Losing Winter was a pain I was totally unprepared for. Logically I knew I was going to hurt, but in the end I had forgotten something could hurt so, so much. It feels like I've woken to a World that is fundamentally Wrong, and will never be Right again now that she can't be in it.
But we're a strange species, us humans. Winter's passing has left a deep, nasty scar on my heart. But if you peeled that scar open you'd find almost 16 years of love, laughter and some of the best times in my life. I live with Chronic Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Winter helped make my life better in every way. She walked with me through some of the most difficult periods of my life, sometimes it's probably more accurate to say she carried me through them. I have a hard time imaging life without her.
I wouldn't trade away one second of my life with Winter to dull this pain, and I would do it all again if asked.
I love you Winter, with all my heart. I hope that you always know that, through your whole life, and wherever you are now. I love you. I miss you.