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Hey all, I've been lurking here for the past couple of weeks due to some health issues my little Kleo has been going through. I need to reach out because I'm going through a really bad time right now and don't know where else or who else to turn to.
My Kleo is going on 16 years old; I've had her since she was only three months old and I know she won't live forever. But I love her to death and in many ways she is all I have, as I live alone and have for many years. She's been with me through so much and I've never had a pet this long or lost something so dear to me. I have no idea how in the world I am ever going to get through losing her - she lights my home up with life and without her this place is going to feel dead and empty.
Every day lately is filled with tons of dread, anticipatory grief, and a sinking feeling in my gut that won't go away, and I've been searching all over the Internet for anything related to pet loss and whatever it is I'm going through right now. I seriously don't know if I can take much more of this.
I'm not motivated to exercise or eat right anymore, if I eat at all, nor do I have any motivation for my usual hobbies due either to guilt of not spending all my free time with her or lack of interest. And of course, she just wants to sleep and be left alone it seems.
Her behavior is changing with obvious signs of slowing down. Maybe I'm more attentive to her now, perhaps things may have been like this for longer than I'm aware. But I recall she used to be a bit more active even just a few weeks ago than she's been lately. She'd frequently hang out with me in the living room, even coming out to play with one of her catnip toys. But lately she seems more interested in hiding out in the bedroom laying/sleeping on the floor, so I've taken note of that and made it as comfy in there for her as I can.
It's just really hard for me to go through this - even last weekend I was on the phone with a local company that does in-home euthanasia visits because she gave me such a serious health scare. She's doing fine health-wise though - her recent vet visit shows that she's healthy for her age. Good bloodwork, healthy organs and eyes, but her demeanor seems like she's too tired or maybe depressed? I don't know.
Anyway, after spending some time reading posts here, I can see this place is a very supportive community of like-minded cat people. I wanted to reach out because I could really use some support right now, as I have no idea how much longer I have with my precious girl and the sense of impending doom is becoming increasingly unbearable.
How do you cope with these feelings of dread and impending doom? I'm going to look into seeing a therapist for this, because I don't know where else to turn.
My Kleo is going on 16 years old; I've had her since she was only three months old and I know she won't live forever. But I love her to death and in many ways she is all I have, as I live alone and have for many years. She's been with me through so much and I've never had a pet this long or lost something so dear to me. I have no idea how in the world I am ever going to get through losing her - she lights my home up with life and without her this place is going to feel dead and empty.
Every day lately is filled with tons of dread, anticipatory grief, and a sinking feeling in my gut that won't go away, and I've been searching all over the Internet for anything related to pet loss and whatever it is I'm going through right now. I seriously don't know if I can take much more of this.
I'm not motivated to exercise or eat right anymore, if I eat at all, nor do I have any motivation for my usual hobbies due either to guilt of not spending all my free time with her or lack of interest. And of course, she just wants to sleep and be left alone it seems.
Her behavior is changing with obvious signs of slowing down. Maybe I'm more attentive to her now, perhaps things may have been like this for longer than I'm aware. But I recall she used to be a bit more active even just a few weeks ago than she's been lately. She'd frequently hang out with me in the living room, even coming out to play with one of her catnip toys. But lately she seems more interested in hiding out in the bedroom laying/sleeping on the floor, so I've taken note of that and made it as comfy in there for her as I can.
It's just really hard for me to go through this - even last weekend I was on the phone with a local company that does in-home euthanasia visits because she gave me such a serious health scare. She's doing fine health-wise though - her recent vet visit shows that she's healthy for her age. Good bloodwork, healthy organs and eyes, but her demeanor seems like she's too tired or maybe depressed? I don't know.
Anyway, after spending some time reading posts here, I can see this place is a very supportive community of like-minded cat people. I wanted to reach out because I could really use some support right now, as I have no idea how much longer I have with my precious girl and the sense of impending doom is becoming increasingly unbearable.
How do you cope with these feelings of dread and impending doom? I'm going to look into seeing a therapist for this, because I don't know where else to turn.
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