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I'm not used to posting on forums, this is honestly my first time. I just.. would like a place to vent; a place to collect my thoughts.
Two days ago, a childhood friend of mine passed away in my arms. It was sudden, traumatic, and far too soon.
Her name was Mitten, and she was a beloved cat of mine.
A best friend of 14 years, she walked beside me through the peaks and valleys of my life. Whenever I was at my lowest, she was there with her comfort and warmth to inspirit me once again.
Mitten was a bright, but calm friend. Not very energetic, but always ready to lay on your lap and talk with you for hours. I swear, her favorite pass-time was just meowing with you, hehe.. She had a sweet and dainty voice, and it was incredibly soothing. Her fur was a beautiful tortoiseshell pattern. It was mostly black and gold, with two little patches of white- A streak down her stomach, and a little patch that encompassed her front right paw; it looked like a mitten.
Along with her I have 4 other cats, two of which are Mittens blood relatives. Her mother, Speckles, and twin brother, Purr-bot. (Yes, the names are quite childish. I was young, and my mother let me name them, hehe. Please don't mind them~) Her mother gave birth to them, along with two other kittens, back in 2004. I was 7 at the time and had just gotten back from visiting my grandparents. I came home to my mother telling me and my brother that Speckles had kittens under a bed while we were gone. The other two kittens we had to find homes for, as we couldn't take care of them all at the time, but Mitten and Purr stayed.
I'm not sure what caused Mitten to go, but it was far too sudden. I've had animals die on me in the past, but it was never before my eyes like this. I loved Mitten, and watching her pass away the way she did was.. devastating.. scarring. I've been crying pools of tears since..
We took her to the vet yesterday, they gave us their sincere condolences and took Mitten away to be cremated. They told us that if you give them a photo of your pet, they will etch/ engrave it onto the Urn. I thought that was an endearing idea, and when I got home I immediately started going through the albums on my computer find the right picture. However, I noticed something that made my heart twist.. I.. never really took many photos of Mitten.
I love taking pictures my pets. I'm not a photographer, but it's always fun capturing your pets in their cutest moments. I have tons of photos of all my other pets, I don't really know why I don't have as many of Mitten. I've thought about it a lot, and maybe it was because whenever I was with her, I was so relaxed that it never crossed my mind..
Either way, I know it doesn't affect her. I know she didn't care for pictures, she just enjoyed the company. It just, it affects me.. I feel like not having as many pictures.. means I'll lose memories of her quicker... I guess. I'm not entirely sure actually.. I just feel melancholic. I feel defeated. I feel like I could have taken more pictures of her, but now that's impossible.. I've felt empty and regretful ever since I realized this.
Having said that, a recent idea came to mind to help me cope with my regrets.
I have a resolution to learn how to illustrate realism art, in hopes to draw Mitten as accurately as possible, using the few photos I have of her as reference.
I know it will take a while, and I know it will be difficult. I just, I feel as though I need to do this. It feels right, and I feel as though it will help me carry on.
Mitten, I love you. I hope you're resting well.
Sorry, this is pretty long and quite messy, but I just needed to get my thoughts written down, and this seemed like a good place to do it. I hope to be more active on this forum in the future. If you read all of this, then thank you for taking the time to do so.
Two days ago, a childhood friend of mine passed away in my arms. It was sudden, traumatic, and far too soon.
Her name was Mitten, and she was a beloved cat of mine.
A best friend of 14 years, she walked beside me through the peaks and valleys of my life. Whenever I was at my lowest, she was there with her comfort and warmth to inspirit me once again.
Mitten was a bright, but calm friend. Not very energetic, but always ready to lay on your lap and talk with you for hours. I swear, her favorite pass-time was just meowing with you, hehe.. She had a sweet and dainty voice, and it was incredibly soothing. Her fur was a beautiful tortoiseshell pattern. It was mostly black and gold, with two little patches of white- A streak down her stomach, and a little patch that encompassed her front right paw; it looked like a mitten.
Along with her I have 4 other cats, two of which are Mittens blood relatives. Her mother, Speckles, and twin brother, Purr-bot. (Yes, the names are quite childish. I was young, and my mother let me name them, hehe. Please don't mind them~) Her mother gave birth to them, along with two other kittens, back in 2004. I was 7 at the time and had just gotten back from visiting my grandparents. I came home to my mother telling me and my brother that Speckles had kittens under a bed while we were gone. The other two kittens we had to find homes for, as we couldn't take care of them all at the time, but Mitten and Purr stayed.
I'm not sure what caused Mitten to go, but it was far too sudden. I've had animals die on me in the past, but it was never before my eyes like this. I loved Mitten, and watching her pass away the way she did was.. devastating.. scarring. I've been crying pools of tears since..
We took her to the vet yesterday, they gave us their sincere condolences and took Mitten away to be cremated. They told us that if you give them a photo of your pet, they will etch/ engrave it onto the Urn. I thought that was an endearing idea, and when I got home I immediately started going through the albums on my computer find the right picture. However, I noticed something that made my heart twist.. I.. never really took many photos of Mitten.
I love taking pictures my pets. I'm not a photographer, but it's always fun capturing your pets in their cutest moments. I have tons of photos of all my other pets, I don't really know why I don't have as many of Mitten. I've thought about it a lot, and maybe it was because whenever I was with her, I was so relaxed that it never crossed my mind..
Either way, I know it doesn't affect her. I know she didn't care for pictures, she just enjoyed the company. It just, it affects me.. I feel like not having as many pictures.. means I'll lose memories of her quicker... I guess. I'm not entirely sure actually.. I just feel melancholic. I feel defeated. I feel like I could have taken more pictures of her, but now that's impossible.. I've felt empty and regretful ever since I realized this.
Having said that, a recent idea came to mind to help me cope with my regrets.
I have a resolution to learn how to illustrate realism art, in hopes to draw Mitten as accurately as possible, using the few photos I have of her as reference.
I know it will take a while, and I know it will be difficult. I just, I feel as though I need to do this. It feels right, and I feel as though it will help me carry on.
Mitten, I love you. I hope you're resting well.
Sorry, this is pretty long and quite messy, but I just needed to get my thoughts written down, and this seemed like a good place to do it. I hope to be more active on this forum in the future. If you read all of this, then thank you for taking the time to do so.