I am so sad. In my neighborhood, there are many feral cats. I felt so bad for these homeless cats, I started feeding them. My neighbors hate me, I'm sure. One of the reasons I felt so bad because there was a kitten - probably 3 months old running around with this crowd. My intention was to gain their trust and then catch the kitten. Well, one day, I had my opportunity. The baby turned his back, and I caught him, I picked him up. But then he squirmed around, and I didn't want to hurt him, so I put him back down. He was slightly scared, but overall fine. So I just let it be and thought I might try another time. Well, a couple of days later - he's missing. I looked all over the neighborhood and I cannot find him. I am so sad because I had my opportunity. He was in my hands, and I let him go. Now, I'm afraid he died. I read that 75% of feral kittens never make it to adulthood. I keep hoping that there is a small chance that he just moved on, but I just don't think so because I think this mom is still here. To add insult to injury, I think his mom is now pregnant. I hate this vicious cycle. I really don't want to be the person who perpetuates this cat overpopulation problem. I feed them because I feel so bad for them. Especially because I have cats myself. I have 4...and sometimes my cats look outside, and the feral cats look back inside, and I just feel so bad that my cats have a good life and the feral cats are homeless. I have 4 cats already. I can't keep any more. I don't know - should I try to catch this mom cat? I think she's pregnant again. I keep telling myself - I feed them, the rest is up to them, but - I don't want this pregnant cat to deliver in the outside and then another baby kitten dies. I am so heartbroken about this one kitten I can't find. What should I do? Should I try to catch this pregnant female, or just let her be? It's hard, she is just beginning to trust me, but she has not let me pet her yet. This is big, because she used to not even come out in my presence. Now, she comes to my porch and sits there waiting for food. Also, what should I do - can I continue to feed these cats, or should I stop? I know my neighbors hate me, but I feel bad for them, they are homeless...P.S. There is another neighbor 2 doors down from me that is also feeding another group of ferals too. What would you do - try to catch the pregnant female, or just leave her alone? Also, what do you think happened to the missing kitten?