Hey guys, just feeling a little blue today--past couple of days actually--and was hoping I could vent a little here. No major catastrophes or anything, just life stress I guess. Part of it is Christmas coming up and the fact that my bf and I won't be spending it together this year (some of you may remember my thread before the crash about sorting out the holidays). Well, due to a miscommunication, both of our families believed we were spending Christmas with them and the only way to solve it (just for this year mind you) was for him to go to his family and me to go to mine on Christmas. Bummer. So we will be doing something special together, just him and I, on Christmas Eve, but it's not the same.
Then I guess I'm just feeling a lot of stress about various things. I've been unemployed since May, voluntarily--I was practicing law and I really could not handle the pressure and adversarial environment anymore, so I quit. It was okay for a little while. I've been spending some time writing fiction and even have been attempting to sell some of my short stories (so far no luck), but I know I have to go out and find a paying job. The thing is I don't know what. I don't even really know what I'm good at, and that bothers me. It's not like I'm a kid just out of school--I'm thirty years old! And I don't want to go back and practice law. I've sent out a couple of resumes for different things with no luck, and I'm just feeling like I have no purpose in life anymore.
On top of this stuff, my bf and I are planning our wedding, which should make me feel happy. Don't get me wrong, I adore him and I am thrilled that we are marrying, but the family issues coming along with the wedding-planning are getting me down, and the wedding's not until October of next year, so there's still lots of time to have to be dealing with it. I'm also trying to sell my co-op apartment, where I used to live before I moved in with my bf--it's been on the market since July and still no takers--meanwhile I'm depleting my savings paying the stupid mortgage and maintenance every month.
Just feeling blue and lonely I guess, without anyone to talk to. My bf is great, but he's pretty much the only one I have to talk to and I feel bad whining all the time. Most of my friends have moved out of state, plus a lot of them just had babies, and no one seems to have any time for me anymore.
Anyway, thanks for letting me have my little pity party here. Sorry to be such a downer.
Then I guess I'm just feeling a lot of stress about various things. I've been unemployed since May, voluntarily--I was practicing law and I really could not handle the pressure and adversarial environment anymore, so I quit. It was okay for a little while. I've been spending some time writing fiction and even have been attempting to sell some of my short stories (so far no luck), but I know I have to go out and find a paying job. The thing is I don't know what. I don't even really know what I'm good at, and that bothers me. It's not like I'm a kid just out of school--I'm thirty years old! And I don't want to go back and practice law. I've sent out a couple of resumes for different things with no luck, and I'm just feeling like I have no purpose in life anymore.
On top of this stuff, my bf and I are planning our wedding, which should make me feel happy. Don't get me wrong, I adore him and I am thrilled that we are marrying, but the family issues coming along with the wedding-planning are getting me down, and the wedding's not until October of next year, so there's still lots of time to have to be dealing with it. I'm also trying to sell my co-op apartment, where I used to live before I moved in with my bf--it's been on the market since July and still no takers--meanwhile I'm depleting my savings paying the stupid mortgage and maintenance every month.
Just feeling blue and lonely I guess, without anyone to talk to. My bf is great, but he's pretty much the only one I have to talk to and I feel bad whining all the time. Most of my friends have moved out of state, plus a lot of them just had babies, and no one seems to have any time for me anymore.
Anyway, thanks for letting me have my little pity party here. Sorry to be such a downer.