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As you know our house is now officially up for sale, it's being advertised for 60 days. We've already had a few people through. They've all been asian families who want to extend and completely change the house. It's already been renovated so they can't rip the insides out. I'm worried for one about Jasmine being buried in the garden bed, it is not deep, even if i put a little plaque with her name and to show she only died 4 months ago, i do not know if they will respect this, and they do not know it isn't deep and they might dig anyway!
I'm just feeling so untrusting of everyone now. My dad says he doesn't care what they do to the house, as long as they give us money. And even though we've only been here 15 months and we hate the neighbours, i'm still freaking out and feeling sad about trying to move, the possibility of Jasmines desicration, of trying to get Charlie to settle again when he's already stressed and spending even more money which we wont have when we move, to enclose the garden for Charlie so he has actual freedom and having my own space to move around while i'm still unemployed but paying rent to my mum.
I know the house choice isn't up to me because i'm only the 'child', but this room atm is smaller than my last, now i have a BIR, a desk and double bed, and i cannot move the two around due to lack of room. I've said the next one cannot be smaller, and if it is i will go crazy, and if its this size or smaller WITHOUT a BIR, i have to stick my wardrobe back into my room and i will seriousely have a square foot of space to move. Is this a huge ask??? Our last house, i had the wardrobe, not a built in, but my room was longer so it all fit. Another thing is we have 2 bathrooms here, 1 in the last house. As i am an adult i need privacy, and i have alot of toiletries, i've gotten so used to having my own bathroom to look after and clean and my own space. No way in HELL am i sharing a single again with my parents. My dad is disgusting (for all of those who don't know, just go searching for my ranting threads about him), my mum needs tonnes of space for her things, i just can't do it again! I also don't trust my father and i have to hide half my belongings from him so he doesn't keep questioning me about every little thing i'm doing and 'what's that' 'where'd you get that from' every 5 seconds.
I need someone to re-assure me!! We don't even know what price well get, and if we can find a nice house/area to live in that we can afford.
I'm sorry, i'm just internally freaking out but trying to keep a brave face for mum. Gah!
I'm just feeling so untrusting of everyone now. My dad says he doesn't care what they do to the house, as long as they give us money. And even though we've only been here 15 months and we hate the neighbours, i'm still freaking out and feeling sad about trying to move, the possibility of Jasmines desicration, of trying to get Charlie to settle again when he's already stressed and spending even more money which we wont have when we move, to enclose the garden for Charlie so he has actual freedom and having my own space to move around while i'm still unemployed but paying rent to my mum.
I know the house choice isn't up to me because i'm only the 'child', but this room atm is smaller than my last, now i have a BIR, a desk and double bed, and i cannot move the two around due to lack of room. I've said the next one cannot be smaller, and if it is i will go crazy, and if its this size or smaller WITHOUT a BIR, i have to stick my wardrobe back into my room and i will seriousely have a square foot of space to move. Is this a huge ask??? Our last house, i had the wardrobe, not a built in, but my room was longer so it all fit. Another thing is we have 2 bathrooms here, 1 in the last house. As i am an adult i need privacy, and i have alot of toiletries, i've gotten so used to having my own bathroom to look after and clean and my own space. No way in HELL am i sharing a single again with my parents. My dad is disgusting (for all of those who don't know, just go searching for my ranting threads about him), my mum needs tonnes of space for her things, i just can't do it again! I also don't trust my father and i have to hide half my belongings from him so he doesn't keep questioning me about every little thing i'm doing and 'what's that' 'where'd you get that from' every 5 seconds.
I need someone to re-assure me!! We don't even know what price well get, and if we can find a nice house/area to live in that we can afford.
I'm sorry, i'm just internally freaking out but trying to keep a brave face for mum. Gah!