I just want one month. I'm praying to God for just ONE freaking month of peace and quiet. I'm not even 22 years old and I feel like I'm my mother's age.
SO, on top of having two deaths around Christmas, and Craig getting laid off just before that, my cats having some (minor) medical problems, our lease ending soon, and me getting my new job (one of the few GOOD things lately), we found out today that Craig has to have surgery on BOTH knees.
He has to a "lateral release". They gotta go in and cut some tendons on both knees because his knee caps are too "tight" and are scraping against the cartilidge in his knees causing pain which could potentially result in pieces of cartilidge breaking off into the joint.
I have to schedule some time off to take care of him because he won't be able to walk too much, and then he has to go through physical therapy. His quadraceps are gonna have to reform and restrengthen to fit his legs because his knee caps are gonna slide, which will cause his muscles to in turn slide. Sigh. I can't AFFORD time off
. I can't afford just having ONE job.
I found out that the other small joy in my life might get taken away and it's completely out of my hands. My god-daughter might be going to live with her dad in San Diego. LaVar Burton has mentioned hiring a lawyer to his son Eian to fight my best friend for custody. She can barely pay her rent much less afford an attorney. We have both cried endless times over this and are at a loss. She's gonna fight to the best of her ability, but we're both scared to death.
I'm gonna miss my baby girl soooo much. I got pictures of her from Christmas and Halloween. I'll post them soon. These are the only pictures I have her. She's so beautiful.
All I ask for is just one month of peace. I don't even ask for GOOD news or good events. Just peace. I'm really stressed out. Sleeping problems, I've noticed some gray hair over the last month (OMG!), and am feeling continuously anxious.
Please, please just give me some peace vibes. A break. A small one. Is that really too much to ask?
SO, on top of having two deaths around Christmas, and Craig getting laid off just before that, my cats having some (minor) medical problems, our lease ending soon, and me getting my new job (one of the few GOOD things lately), we found out today that Craig has to have surgery on BOTH knees.
He has to a "lateral release". They gotta go in and cut some tendons on both knees because his knee caps are too "tight" and are scraping against the cartilidge in his knees causing pain which could potentially result in pieces of cartilidge breaking off into the joint.
I have to schedule some time off to take care of him because he won't be able to walk too much, and then he has to go through physical therapy. His quadraceps are gonna have to reform and restrengthen to fit his legs because his knee caps are gonna slide, which will cause his muscles to in turn slide. Sigh. I can't AFFORD time off
I found out that the other small joy in my life might get taken away and it's completely out of my hands. My god-daughter might be going to live with her dad in San Diego. LaVar Burton has mentioned hiring a lawyer to his son Eian to fight my best friend for custody. She can barely pay her rent much less afford an attorney. We have both cried endless times over this and are at a loss. She's gonna fight to the best of her ability, but we're both scared to death.
I'm gonna miss my baby girl soooo much. I got pictures of her from Christmas and Halloween. I'll post them soon. These are the only pictures I have her. She's so beautiful.
All I ask for is just one month of peace. I don't even ask for GOOD news or good events. Just peace. I'm really stressed out. Sleeping problems, I've noticed some gray hair over the last month (OMG!), and am feeling continuously anxious.
Please, please just give me some peace vibes. A break. A small one. Is that really too much to ask?