Good things are happening at work for me but, I've gotta tell you, it's making me a little nervous...
Readers Digest version:
I am a Business/Systems Analyst (computer geek) and the primary breadwinner at home. In 2000, I got laid off. I was out of work for almost two years. It was horrible. It all happened 4 months after my squeeze and I got married. Bruce was my rock and kept me from going off the deep end. My confidence was poo and, like many many other folks in the country, I couldn't find work to save my life. I wound up working 4 (yes 4) crappy minimum wage paying jobs just to pay the rent. Our life was hell. It was the most humbling experience of my life.
Then, the clouds parted last November and I landed this job!!! It's doing what I was meant to do (Analyst)! YAY ME! It's great here and I love it! Not to mention how thankful I am to even have this job. Things are finally looking up for us. The future's so bright, I have to wear shades, right?
Well, here's my thing. I've been here 10 months and have worked my butt off. Apparently, hard work pays off and there are 3 different groups that want me to work for their teams. Cool huh? I'm very excited about the prospects but my confidence is shot. I can't help but feel that maybe they think I'm better than I really am. In my head, I think I'm full of crap and that one day the jig will be up and they'll see that I really suck.
I know I'm smart and very good at what I do, but the last few years really did a number on me.
I guess I'm just really writing this to vent. Not sure what I'm looking for. But thanks for listening. I appreciate the ear.
Readers Digest version:
I am a Business/Systems Analyst (computer geek) and the primary breadwinner at home. In 2000, I got laid off. I was out of work for almost two years. It was horrible. It all happened 4 months after my squeeze and I got married. Bruce was my rock and kept me from going off the deep end. My confidence was poo and, like many many other folks in the country, I couldn't find work to save my life. I wound up working 4 (yes 4) crappy minimum wage paying jobs just to pay the rent. Our life was hell. It was the most humbling experience of my life.
Then, the clouds parted last November and I landed this job!!! It's doing what I was meant to do (Analyst)! YAY ME! It's great here and I love it! Not to mention how thankful I am to even have this job. Things are finally looking up for us. The future's so bright, I have to wear shades, right?
Well, here's my thing. I've been here 10 months and have worked my butt off. Apparently, hard work pays off and there are 3 different groups that want me to work for their teams. Cool huh? I'm very excited about the prospects but my confidence is shot. I can't help but feel that maybe they think I'm better than I really am. In my head, I think I'm full of crap and that one day the jig will be up and they'll see that I really suck.
I know I'm smart and very good at what I do, but the last few years really did a number on me.
I guess I'm just really writing this to vent. Not sure what I'm looking for. But thanks for listening. I appreciate the ear.