I have to get a colonoscopy! I'm scared!
I think I'm more afraid of the procedure than I am about what is wrong with me. My doctor has thought for the past year that I had IBS. Then it was IBS with chronic constipation. Now I have rectal bleeding and it isn't from hemorrhoids or fissures. I know this sounds gross but I am freaking out. I have dismissed the bleeding as hemorrhoids for a long time and to know that isn't the problem scares me. My grandmother died from colon cancer. Everyone including my doctor has thought I was just overeacting for the past year and a half. Today I saw the doctor for something totally unrelated and I get slapped with this. I thought when she examed me today was bad, but now I have to get a colonoscopy! I thought during a colonoscopy they would put you to sleep, but my doctor said today that they just give me some pain medicine to relax me and that I PROBABLY won't remember anything. Probably???!!! I DON'T want to know it even happened!!