Aw, Allie...
Yeah, she DID test positive for EXPOSURE to the Coronavirus, but negative at the higher dilution that would signal the mutation responsible for FIP. It's very possible, according to the vet, that all of these symptoms are complications from a coronavirus mixed with the fact that her immune system is shot. Based on her retest results, her weight, her activity level and her unwilling-ness to eat, it's pretty clear that she is suffering. She ate another few bites of kibble this afternoon and is still into cuddling, but really nothing else. She is getting very thin and very weak. She hasn't been coming to me anywhere near as often as she did before.Originally Posted by kluchetta
Smudgie's red blood cells did that too.
No. That's exactly how I felt. A relief that he was at peace, even though for MYSELF, I didn't want him to go.Originally Posted by lionessrampant
Yeah, she DID test positive for EXPOSURE to the Coronavirus, but negative at the higher dilution that would signal the mutation responsible for FIP. It's very possible, according to the vet, that all of these symptoms are complications from a coronavirus mixed with the fact that her immune system is shot. Based on her retest results, her weight, her activity level and her unwilling-ness to eat, it's pretty clear that she is suffering. She ate another few bites of kibble this afternoon and is still into cuddling, but really nothing else. She is getting very thin and very weak. She hasn't been coming to me anywhere near as often as she did before.
Is it bad that I feel like I feel much better once she has actually gone to the bridge and found peace? This is tearing me up to watch her go downhill. I just need to say goodbye...
I think everyone here, Leo and Lola included, just want this to be over. I want Lola to be healthy and happy and playful again, and at this point, the only place where that can happen is over the Rainbow Bridge. I'm not a religious person, but I have a lot of non-specifically-directed faith, and I know that she will find peace wherever we go after this life (but I DO really like the idea of teh rainbow bridge). There are some goodbyes to be said and some final mementos to make and then, I think it will be her time to go. The diuretics are making her even weaker right now. I took her off the Clavamox because she was fighting so much...I AM Still trying to get a little food in her, just so the pain won't be so great and her liver won't shut down the way her lungs and kidneys are starting to do. She such a beautiful girl...I wish I could just save her forever for myself, but that would be selfish.Originally Posted by kluchetta
No. That's exactly how I felt. A relief that he was at peace, even though for MYSELF, I didn't want him to go.
Originally Posted by valanhb
Allie, I'm so sorry to hear that she is so far gone.
It is hard giving support online, because there is so much we can't see, can't feel, that we can in person. We hope against hope for a miracle, because that's the best we can give to you. But I was just thinking...in Lola's case, just as in Smudge's case, perhaps the miracle already happened. Lola is in a wonderful home, with such love surrounding her. She found someone so special that she could know a lifetime of love in a short time. And she found someone who would love her so unconditionally to give her the absolute best, to do what is best for her, no matter what that is.
I wish Lola comfort in her remaining time. Even as ill as she is, I feel so much love from you and from her in your posts.
this really is beautiful Heidi - what a beautiful thing to say.Originally Posted by valanhb
... perhaps the miracle already happened. Lola is in a wonderful home, with such love surrounding her. She found someone so special that she could know a lifetime of love in a short time. And she found someone who would love her so unconditionally to give her the absolute best, to do what is best for her, no matter what that is
SOOOO true!!! Beautiful, Heidi!Originally Posted by huggles
this really is beautiful Heidi - what a beautiful thing to say.
I really wish i could say or offer more but at least know our thoughts are with you right nowthere is nothing wrong with wanting her pain to end at this stage... little Lola, your so brave sweetheart - kisses to you on that little nose of you - we are all so proud of you