It's weird. I keep asking myself if I should be upset about this... We just got back from visiting my family out of town. That included my Grandpa who is in a nursing home now. He didn't know who I was. He slept all but maybe 2 minutes of my second visit with him. My Dad asked him "What's my daughter's name?" and Grandpa said my name; but by sight he didn't know me.
And I'm not yet really upset by this. It was 2 days ago. I feel like there must be something wrong with me! Grandpa has had Alzheimer's for a few years now. My Gram does too but she just has short term memory problems mostly. My other Gram has pretty severe dementia and you can't have a conversation with her; but mostly she knows who people are. Considering the many many many long talks Gram and I used to have that should tear me up as well. But It didn't even phase me. So all 3 of them are mere shadows of the people they once were.
Have I become callous? Or am I just used to having so many Grandparents in this state now so its just not a shock? It's crazy! I only get to see them a few times a year at most and my cousins who see them regularly are more upset by this. I'm more shocked by how I feel....or don't feel I guess! And that makes me feel bad. Maybe I just don't dwell on it because there is nothing I can do? It's not like I don't care. I guess that's why I feel like something is wrong with this situation.
And I'm not yet really upset by this. It was 2 days ago. I feel like there must be something wrong with me! Grandpa has had Alzheimer's for a few years now. My Gram does too but she just has short term memory problems mostly. My other Gram has pretty severe dementia and you can't have a conversation with her; but mostly she knows who people are. Considering the many many many long talks Gram and I used to have that should tear me up as well. But It didn't even phase me. So all 3 of them are mere shadows of the people they once were.
Have I become callous? Or am I just used to having so many Grandparents in this state now so its just not a shock? It's crazy! I only get to see them a few times a year at most and my cousins who see them regularly are more upset by this. I'm more shocked by how I feel....or don't feel I guess! And that makes me feel bad. Maybe I just don't dwell on it because there is nothing I can do? It's not like I don't care. I guess that's why I feel like something is wrong with this situation.