BUT, at the moment I have eight cats...only two of which are mine. Although I think I will be keeping a brother and sister pair that were dropped off at our door around 3 in the morning about a month ago. There is constantly stray cats being dropped off, kicked out, and abandoned since we live in a Metropolitan Housing Complex. Through a nice lady who also rescues cats we (me and one of my sisters) were able to take in and find homes for over one hundred cats last year and this year...so far. But due to a comment she made to me one day I no longer want her to help and haven't told her about the others. She said that she aborted one of the pregnant cat's kittens (she just had one) because she didn't have enough room for it. It did not get pregnant where she is because she spays/neuters them all when she first gets them. Also, she is packed and does not have room and isn't getting too many calls for adoption. And she also told me not to get another cat because she can't take them. I'm guessing that meant even if she did have room. Every cat/kitten we've given her she's adopted out because I love them to death and they are very social and loving by the time she gets them. She still has almost all the cats she's rescued herself. (ANGRY, ran out of smiley allowance for this post.)
At the moment there are around ten cats out around the complex that are not doing well and need medical care, even some that are starving and seemingly have NO stomach at all. I can't take anymore in because my parents complain about taking them in since we're only allowed to have ONE pet here. I've never lived by that and can't because there are so many that are suffering. I do feed them and put water out for them everyday but I know that's not enough.
I don't want to forget them to start my life, but I don't know where to turn. My sister just brought me another kitten about 5 months old that someone has just started letting out tonight, but since it's "someone's pet" I can't take it. (It's another male kitty.) If it comes back around tomorrow I will though regardless. It usually means they don't want it here when that starts to happen. Yes, unfortunately it's kind of routine from these IDIOTIC RETARDED PEOPLE AROUND HERE!!
The TWO shelters here I won't get any help from because one is falling apart and the other is full and euthanizes HUNDREDS of healthy pets daily. I don't have enough money, actually none at all to get the new ones spayed/neutered. (My mom and sister work and my sister helps pay for the cat's stuff cause she cares for them and mom does too. Dad is on BWC and wastes most all his and tries to everyone else's on his "stuff" as I like to call it. ) And because Scruff is starting to spray my older sister's cat is starting to pee on everything because he believes himself to be the dominant one. (All of the cats we own are neutered. I have two, mom has one, (Marshmellow)older sis has one,(Splash) and younger sis has one.(Mouse)) All of the cats we own are rescues also that we just couldn't let go. Blue has helped me get out of the depression I was in. Besides God of course, it's just so hard to do it alone.
On top of all that the animal control WILL NOT pick up or help cats and if they did it would be straight to a shelter to get euthanized. I just recently found a stray and her two kittens living by a highway and started feeding them. I haven't seen them since the first day but the food is always gone and I put it in the same spot.
Plus, the low cost spay/neuter program League for Animal Welfare has run out of funds and I can't get the new stray kitties I took in spay/neutered. AND, I just turned 20 today!
I want to do so much and yet have the resources to do nothing except die. I'm trying my best to NOT be depressed and NOT quit on life again. (I got so bad where I didn't ever get up. I slept all day. I ate too much, or not at all. I was a mess.) It's just so hard, and so many things are all piling up all the time. I have no one to talk to, no friends. I don't go anywhere. And NO ONE can relate to me even if I did know anyone.
My parents neither one were the best and used me as their counselor since I was 7, details about themselves I would never have wanted to know. I have to be there for everyone else, but I don't have anyone that's there for me. Am I being selfish? I feel like I am. I just keep feeling like nothing will ever work out, nothing will be ok. And these poor little ones are suffering because of STUPID PEOPLE and I can't change the world no matter how much I may want to. I can't even help like I want to.
Ohio sucks, it seems they hate cats, and that's not fair.
P.S. I WILL NOT take my cats to M.A.R.X.