A part of me feels like I'm acting like an ungrateful brat, and the other part of me is very hurt, and then I feel like an ungrateful brat for being hurt.
OK, last evening I went to a Christmas/Holiday party for my building. A while ago, I told one of my neighbours to pliease not get me a gift this year, because I was really strapped for cash this year, and couldn't afford to get gifts for people, but she said, she was going to get me a gift if she wanted, and that was that. She "claims" that I'm a special friend to her and that she loves me like a sister, and I sometimes wonder if that's true, or if I'm just her personal Blockbuster video, because I usually loan her anywhere from 1 to 3 DVD's to watch every week. So, I'm saving her rental fee's, if you know what I mean, and she kind of gets upset with me, if I don't have new movies to lend her each week.
Anyway, last night she demanded that I go to the party, which I finally gave in and did. It was having a pretty good time. Then one of her other friends came, and she told us she would be back, because she was going to go home and get our presents. She comes back with one beautiful gift basket, filled with fruits, jelly's, cheeses, candies, and that sort of thing, and another smaller gift that was wrapped. My gift was the small wrapped package. When I opened it, I found a bottle of V05 Shampoo, and V05 creme rinse, in a package where you buy them together as a deal. The price tag of $1.15 was still on it. Now, I realize that it isn't the price that someone spends on a gift that is important, it's the tought, but to me, it showed me that the thought behind it was to show me how little she valued my friendship, especially compared to how she valued the other person's friendship. To me, it showed little or no thought. I would have rather she would have got me nothing than to show me I wasn't even worth the value of a movie rental, which I save her every week.
Anyway, I feel such mixed emotions about this. Like I said I'm feeling really hurt, but then I feel like I shouldn't be hurt, because I should appreciate the gesture. Would any of you feel the same way? Am I being a brat?
OK, last evening I went to a Christmas/Holiday party for my building. A while ago, I told one of my neighbours to pliease not get me a gift this year, because I was really strapped for cash this year, and couldn't afford to get gifts for people, but she said, she was going to get me a gift if she wanted, and that was that. She "claims" that I'm a special friend to her and that she loves me like a sister, and I sometimes wonder if that's true, or if I'm just her personal Blockbuster video, because I usually loan her anywhere from 1 to 3 DVD's to watch every week. So, I'm saving her rental fee's, if you know what I mean, and she kind of gets upset with me, if I don't have new movies to lend her each week.
Anyway, last night she demanded that I go to the party, which I finally gave in and did. It was having a pretty good time. Then one of her other friends came, and she told us she would be back, because she was going to go home and get our presents. She comes back with one beautiful gift basket, filled with fruits, jelly's, cheeses, candies, and that sort of thing, and another smaller gift that was wrapped. My gift was the small wrapped package. When I opened it, I found a bottle of V05 Shampoo, and V05 creme rinse, in a package where you buy them together as a deal. The price tag of $1.15 was still on it. Now, I realize that it isn't the price that someone spends on a gift that is important, it's the tought, but to me, it showed me that the thought behind it was to show me how little she valued my friendship, especially compared to how she valued the other person's friendship. To me, it showed little or no thought. I would have rather she would have got me nothing than to show me I wasn't even worth the value of a movie rental, which I save her every week.
Anyway, I feel such mixed emotions about this. Like I said I'm feeling really hurt, but then I feel like I shouldn't be hurt, because I should appreciate the gesture. Would any of you feel the same way? Am I being a brat?