anger and depression? I am having a very hard time dealing with my anger and even depression associated with my family. As I have said my dad has pretty basically made it clear that I don't matter to him and my sister I feel is one of the reasons why. And mom well she left a long time ago although I am starting to wonder if dad's abuse emotionally and mentally and by the simply her being 14 and him being 38 and the fact that she had been sexually abused by her father is why she left me, well I know it is. And my dad has always made it plain that he loves my sister more and I have tried to deal with it and I don't know how. I know once I can get out of here it will help but even then how do I put it behind me? Right now the whole thing of finding out he is putting the house he promised to me in her kid's names, and the fact that he gave her all of the money from the sale of the farm that he didn't use on the farm, is like salt in a wound it began from the time she was born. When he had me he never bought me toys, car seats, or even a crib I slept in a dresser drawer. But when she was born he bought her all of these things and he bought her first three cars and I paid for my own. He also got mad when I talked of going to school but he said she could do anything.
And I just don't get it.
And I just don't get it.