Swanie keeps looking under the bed. He'll jump up by the headboard and look down behind the mattress. This morning I saw him with his head under the mattress in the guest room, which we call the cat's room. Both Cindy (lost in September) and Darcy (lost in December) used to go under the bed. I can't help but think he's still looking for one or the other.
I can't even comprehend losing three in a row. Losing two has just about killed me. I think Cindy led us to Darcy because she needed someone to love and take care of her during her final months. We took the best care we could of Cindy through her two year fight with cancer, so we think she knew we would be good to Darcy. And Swanie accepted her immediately, and she accepted him too. The first one we adopted, I didn't listen to my heart because I was trying to let DH take the lead (since Cindy was his heart kitty), and we ended up with one who wanted to be an only cat and was bullying Swanie. The day we took her back to the shelter (in tears) we had no intention of taking another cat home with us. But the Director said "you have to meet Darcy!" I swear I only spent 5 minutes petting her in her little bed, while DH sat in a chair and watched, but she had my heart immediately. We are hoping that Cindy / Darcy have lead us to Cricket. She had a rough start to life being dumped in a cul de sac, and now she's been in the shelter in a cage in the back room for way too long because they had a hard time getting her to eat, and then when she was supposed to be spayed the volunteer forgot to take up her food and water. She is shy and scared, but she's not scared of us. She will come up to us and cuddle next to us. We hopefully will be able to bring her home next Saturday. Konikat, I think it's awesome that you have adopted a cat who was being used to give blood! It's time for him to get rewarded for saving other kitties!!
Oh no, I hope Holly is okay. I spoke with a woman who had the same situation we were in, lost a cat to cancer and got a kitten who was perfect for the family and the kitten got FIP. She said she had to take the kitten to the ER and it was so much deja vu she was just shaking. I know I keep watching Swanie and for a while he was really moping around. I wasn't sure if he was grieving or sick. He almost had a trip to the vet until he perked up again. I'm a little nervous about adopting again too, but I will.
Thank you so much for the beautiful post samnmag. I know my Darcy is in a good place now, but I miss her so much, it still hurts so bad.
Thank you Emily Catgirl. They say time will ease the pain, but I guess I need more time...
Thank you, samnmag, that is such a beautiful thought. I do think people meet for a reason, be it in person on any other way, and I really do hope all the kitties who leave us are together now and happy. I'm sure they have to know how loved they were and are. I know we'll see them again when it's our turn to cross that bridge. But it still hurts.
