Based upon my own previous experiences, I believe that in time this acute pain of your loss will stop. It's all so new and horrifying, but in my cases, eventually, the pain settles some and I am able to think back on my kitty's life and smile with good memories.
When I lost Gray in 2004, I absolutely thought I would die. He was my soulmate, if ever there was one. I wrote a few pages about his loss, and that was cathartic to me (similiar to your writing your thoughts on here). Several years later I found that - had forgotten I even wrote it - and was astonished to realize that the extreme pain and heartache had dissipated, somehow.
I am sending many, many hugs to you. Take as much time as you need to grieve. You'll know when the time is right to seek out another. Or - they just may seek you out!
When I lost Gray in 2004, I absolutely thought I would die. He was my soulmate, if ever there was one. I wrote a few pages about his loss, and that was cathartic to me (similiar to your writing your thoughts on here). Several years later I found that - had forgotten I even wrote it - and was astonished to realize that the extreme pain and heartache had dissipated, somehow.
I am sending many, many hugs to you. Take as much time as you need to grieve. You'll know when the time is right to seek out another. Or - they just may seek you out!
