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I'm not even sure this is in the right place, so I apologize if I posted it in the wrong forum. However, I'm going through a hard time right now and just wondering if anyone else ever feels overwhelmed by their cats. My worry for them has really taken over my life. If you see my screen name (which can tell you a lot) or my posts, you'll see they are all in Cat Health and all expressing concern over my cats' health, mostly one cat in particular, although now I'm worried about my eldest too and have varying degrees of worry for all of them. By my posts, you'd think I'm a first time cat owner, although I've owned cats now for 19 years, ever since I was a little girl. My first cat passed at nearly 13 years old from CRF. It was very sudden that he took ill, was diagnosed, and I found him gone, next to his food dish where he'd just eaten. It's an image that stays with me and can reduce me to tears to this day and it's been 6 years since it happened. This past summer, I lost my 14 year old cat, who already had HCM, to probable lymphoma. Again, it was sudden. He began to vomit up everything he ate, wouldn't eat anything, and then I had to make the difficult choice, one I was once abjectly against but he was suffering greatly.
I guess a part of me feels like there was something I could have done to change the course of things. Could I have saved my cat with CRF somehow? My 14 year old cat had frequent hairballs and bouts of nausea. Was this the start of his disease? Now whenever one of my cat seems ill at all (upset tummy or something that might be minor) I panic. Even when they act better, I still live with this surge of anxiety flowing through me. It's hard to function at times. I have some cats with chronic issues (allergies and asthma). They have issues on and off but I always think they will die at any second. Now yesterday, my eldest cat acted nauseous and I'm just in a terrible state, trying to get through the day at work. It's sadly gotten to the point where I fret about my cats more than enjoy them and I don't want it to be this way. I know a part of this is relinquishing control but I just want them to be healthy. I've even discussed this with my PCP and she suggested some therapy which I've had in the past and would consider again. Anyone ever feel this way? Any advice or words of wisdom?
I guess a part of me feels like there was something I could have done to change the course of things. Could I have saved my cat with CRF somehow? My 14 year old cat had frequent hairballs and bouts of nausea. Was this the start of his disease? Now whenever one of my cat seems ill at all (upset tummy or something that might be minor) I panic. Even when they act better, I still live with this surge of anxiety flowing through me. It's hard to function at times. I have some cats with chronic issues (allergies and asthma). They have issues on and off but I always think they will die at any second. Now yesterday, my eldest cat acted nauseous and I'm just in a terrible state, trying to get through the day at work. It's sadly gotten to the point where I fret about my cats more than enjoy them and I don't want it to be this way. I know a part of this is relinquishing control but I just want them to be healthy. I've even discussed this with my PCP and she suggested some therapy which I've had in the past and would consider again. Anyone ever feel this way? Any advice or words of wisdom?