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Hi, I had let let my 17 Year old kitty Coby go 2 weeks ago. I am just racked with guilt, emotion, and so many what ifs.
He had kidney disease and ibd. He was diagnosed at the end of July. The Thursday before that Friday October 19th, I could see he wasn't doing well. I noticed he wouldnt lift his head and just layed there on the rug in the bedroom. He wouldn't look at me when I called him. I also noticed he peed on his bed which he never did. I was going to take him to the ER vet but i had hopes he'd come around as he did before. But he didn't. I took him to his regular vet on Friday and we had his bloodwork done and it was all over the place. His creatine skyrocketed and his bun was high. The vet said i should put him to sleep and i agreed.
Now I am beating myself up so badly. I feel like a monster because I let him die there on the cold vet table. I held him and told him i loved him before she gave him the shot. I should of taken him home and spent one last night with him and had the at home vet come to the house. I feel like a monster. I didn't get to spend time with him at all because i had to be at work Friday. I didn't think they were gonna tell me to put him down right then and there but I just thought of how bad he looked and thats why I agreed with the vet. I keep being told I did the right thing but I also wonder if he could of been stabilized if I would of taken him the the ER vet.
I just feel like I let him down. He was my soul cat. Now he is gone and it is unbearable. Here is a pic of him in better days:
He had kidney disease and ibd. He was diagnosed at the end of July. The Thursday before that Friday October 19th, I could see he wasn't doing well. I noticed he wouldnt lift his head and just layed there on the rug in the bedroom. He wouldn't look at me when I called him. I also noticed he peed on his bed which he never did. I was going to take him to the ER vet but i had hopes he'd come around as he did before. But he didn't. I took him to his regular vet on Friday and we had his bloodwork done and it was all over the place. His creatine skyrocketed and his bun was high. The vet said i should put him to sleep and i agreed.
Now I am beating myself up so badly. I feel like a monster because I let him die there on the cold vet table. I held him and told him i loved him before she gave him the shot. I should of taken him home and spent one last night with him and had the at home vet come to the house. I feel like a monster. I didn't get to spend time with him at all because i had to be at work Friday. I didn't think they were gonna tell me to put him down right then and there but I just thought of how bad he looked and thats why I agreed with the vet. I keep being told I did the right thing but I also wonder if he could of been stabilized if I would of taken him the the ER vet.
I just feel like I let him down. He was my soul cat. Now he is gone and it is unbearable. Here is a pic of him in better days: