I know I have!
Firstly my business adventure, that went to pot basically because a so called friend let me down, so then I've been relying on Alans wage because no matter how many jobs I apply for theres always somebody more experienced, more qualifications yadda yadda...
My endo has just been out of control, the pain and tears has been overbearing, nothing is easing the pain, I have a great pain barrier usually, but this is unbelievable and I cannot cope at all! so it's back yet again to the doctors.
Then my nan rings, is slurring words and eventually falls over, she is taken to hospital where she has broken her wrist,she falls again this time they say it's a blood disorder, then further tests tell us she has lung cancer, she also has a brain scan which shows she also has a form of dementia..I go and see her and she keeps trying to give me money thinking she owes everyone money and repeating herself and not remembering something she just told you, then withing 3 months she passes away, I was distraught she was always so strong, 78 and still used to go shopping and worked right up until she was 75!
Then my poor dog, battled cancer for 6 months, she had two operations to remove tumours, the third time they said it couldn't be operated on which I wouldn't of put her through another anyway, and she has been fine, active and eating, going for walks, then the other day she was asleep, as I went up to her I saw her nose was pouring with blood, and I knew then that was her last day, sure enough the vet said it was now time before she started to suffer, I had that dog for almost 17 years and she's a big loss.
It's like everything is all happening at once, my emotions are all over the place, I'm grouchy, losing my appetite, does anyone ever feel like they've just had enough? and how do you cope? Cos I feel like my head will explode!
Firstly my business adventure, that went to pot basically because a so called friend let me down, so then I've been relying on Alans wage because no matter how many jobs I apply for theres always somebody more experienced, more qualifications yadda yadda...
My endo has just been out of control, the pain and tears has been overbearing, nothing is easing the pain, I have a great pain barrier usually, but this is unbelievable and I cannot cope at all! so it's back yet again to the doctors.
Then my nan rings, is slurring words and eventually falls over, she is taken to hospital where she has broken her wrist,she falls again this time they say it's a blood disorder, then further tests tell us she has lung cancer, she also has a brain scan which shows she also has a form of dementia..I go and see her and she keeps trying to give me money thinking she owes everyone money and repeating herself and not remembering something she just told you, then withing 3 months she passes away, I was distraught she was always so strong, 78 and still used to go shopping and worked right up until she was 75!
Then my poor dog, battled cancer for 6 months, she had two operations to remove tumours, the third time they said it couldn't be operated on which I wouldn't of put her through another anyway, and she has been fine, active and eating, going for walks, then the other day she was asleep, as I went up to her I saw her nose was pouring with blood, and I knew then that was her last day, sure enough the vet said it was now time before she started to suffer, I had that dog for almost 17 years and she's a big loss.
It's like everything is all happening at once, my emotions are all over the place, I'm grouchy, losing my appetite, does anyone ever feel like they've just had enough? and how do you cope? Cos I feel like my head will explode!