On Facebook, I am part of two NB SPCA groups. A few days ago they had sent out a notice saying they were in desperate need of a home for a poor Terrier mix named Lady who has had a rough life and wont live much longer. She was part of 60 dogs that were seized from a seniorâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s home that had passed away. She is 12 years old and had her last litter a few months ago, she has a tumor in her mouth and mammary gland tumors and is missing most of her teeth. They say she will live another year or two before her tumors cause her to stop eating all together and she will have to be put down.
Of course my heart went out to her and I asked my boyfriend if we could consider taking her in. To my irritation he didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t even acknowledge it and it seemed like he acted like I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t even ask. I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t push it because as annoyed as I was at his reaction I canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t complain much since we have four animals when he didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t even want one. A part of me was panicking that something bad would happen, I contributed that to my OCDâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ishness and still didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t say a word. I really felt like I should have pushed it, and I started to feel upset and stressed, but like I said I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want to complain much because I appreciate the fact the we have the four we have and my boyfriend understands how much I love animals.
Anyway, as usual here I am writing a story. I did not check my email all weekend. I checked it last night as saw there was an urgent email for the SPCA claiming that Lady was put into foster care and escaped. They were pleading for help because Lady was missing since Friday. She is afraid of noises, people and other animals and has no teeth, she is also 12 years old and cant fend for herself. They were asking everyone to look for her because they feel it will be impossible to find her due to all her issues. Its been 4 days… I have a feeling she wont be found.
As soon as I read this email I felt horrible. I felt like it was my fault, I knew something bad would happen but I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t push it. As soon as my boyfriend went to bed I spent a good hour in the bathroom crying. I have a feeling she wont survive, or she may have died already.
Am I being over emotional to cry so hard and long for a dog I never knew or am not sure if sheâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s alive or dead? I just feel so bad, I feel like I could have made this old girls retirement wonderful to make up for 12 hard years. Even if it was for only 1-2 years.
Sorry for the long story.
Of course my heart went out to her and I asked my boyfriend if we could consider taking her in. To my irritation he didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t even acknowledge it and it seemed like he acted like I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t even ask. I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t push it because as annoyed as I was at his reaction I canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t complain much since we have four animals when he didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t even want one. A part of me was panicking that something bad would happen, I contributed that to my OCDâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ishness and still didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t say a word. I really felt like I should have pushed it, and I started to feel upset and stressed, but like I said I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want to complain much because I appreciate the fact the we have the four we have and my boyfriend understands how much I love animals.
Anyway, as usual here I am writing a story. I did not check my email all weekend. I checked it last night as saw there was an urgent email for the SPCA claiming that Lady was put into foster care and escaped. They were pleading for help because Lady was missing since Friday. She is afraid of noises, people and other animals and has no teeth, she is also 12 years old and cant fend for herself. They were asking everyone to look for her because they feel it will be impossible to find her due to all her issues. Its been 4 days… I have a feeling she wont be found.
As soon as I read this email I felt horrible. I felt like it was my fault, I knew something bad would happen but I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t push it. As soon as my boyfriend went to bed I spent a good hour in the bathroom crying. I have a feeling she wont survive, or she may have died already.
Am I being over emotional to cry so hard and long for a dog I never knew or am not sure if sheâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s alive or dead? I just feel so bad, I feel like I could have made this old girls retirement wonderful to make up for 12 hard years. Even if it was for only 1-2 years.
Sorry for the long story.