The breeder's husband called me today... it seems that for a week the babies' condition had worsened despite their best efforts to help them and feed them manually. I was in close contact with the breeder, in fact almost every day.
The infection in the mother was caught too late and it had already traveled in the maternal milk before they could seperate the babies and the moter. Last Saturday, a small one was euthanized. Today the breeder and her husband decided to stop the sufferance of the other babies who have gotten worse and worse since then...
I am in total shock. I know she sort of lied to me because she didn't want to alarm me for nothing had they saved the babies, but I was also angry. I could hear her cry in the background while her husband apologized about 1000 times for the situation and the fact they hid their true condition. He told me she was simply incapable of telling me the truth, as she knew it would destroy me inside and she was herself completely annihilated ... at this point I was both frustrated and incredibly sad.
I've been following both the mother's progress as well as the babies since their Birth, all of that since early June. I've been preparing for their arrival with anticipation and extreme excitement for weeks... as stupid as it sound, it feels like I've lost something important...
How fair is life sometimes