Well, I thought I'd seek advice where it is given best. Here.
I feel kind of guilty, lazy, foolish and pretty much useless right now and here is the reason why:
I made up my mind last friday and called to have a cleaning lady come to my home once a week. Part of me is so excited and I just can't wait for her to start and yet, another part of me wonders hy it is I just can't seem to do this on my own.
I am so exhausted all the time. I work all day, run home, prepare supper, do homework, clean up dishes, tidy up and head to bed. It is like that every day. And then, on the week-ends, I am cleaning non-stop. I've decided I need a break or something will end up happening to me. Hubby helps as much as he can (wants???) but he is not that fussy on having a clean house. He's rather I sit down and do thinds eventually. I can't. There is always something that needs to be cleaned up, washed, vaccuumed etc....plus, my 2 boys keep me busy.
Part of me just wants to crawl into bed and not get up....I just know I can't do it anymore. I'm no good at this. I really need the help.
Now, I know there are so many of you working mothers out there that do succeed in all of this and never need help. What am I doing wrong?? I am not one of those women that needs to feel like you have to be able to eat off of the floor but: I hate it when my home is messy.
Should I be feeling guilty because I've asked for help? I was so excited with my decision and now, I'm wondering why I haven't been able to do this myself.
I guess I'd just like to know if anyone else would choose this route if they felt they needed to or would you figure out a way to do it all yourself without tiring yourself out?
This thursday, the cleaning company (its the same one that comes to my office) is coming over and doing a spring cleaning. After that, they will be coming once a week for 4-5 hours on a thursday or friday, which means, I won't be spending my week-ends cleaning. I'l have more time to enjoy my time off and to have some relaxing moments with my boys.
What do you guys think???
I feel kind of guilty, lazy, foolish and pretty much useless right now and here is the reason why:
I made up my mind last friday and called to have a cleaning lady come to my home once a week. Part of me is so excited and I just can't wait for her to start and yet, another part of me wonders hy it is I just can't seem to do this on my own.
I am so exhausted all the time. I work all day, run home, prepare supper, do homework, clean up dishes, tidy up and head to bed. It is like that every day. And then, on the week-ends, I am cleaning non-stop. I've decided I need a break or something will end up happening to me. Hubby helps as much as he can (wants???) but he is not that fussy on having a clean house. He's rather I sit down and do thinds eventually. I can't. There is always something that needs to be cleaned up, washed, vaccuumed etc....plus, my 2 boys keep me busy.
Part of me just wants to crawl into bed and not get up....I just know I can't do it anymore. I'm no good at this. I really need the help.
Now, I know there are so many of you working mothers out there that do succeed in all of this and never need help. What am I doing wrong?? I am not one of those women that needs to feel like you have to be able to eat off of the floor but: I hate it when my home is messy.
Should I be feeling guilty because I've asked for help? I was so excited with my decision and now, I'm wondering why I haven't been able to do this myself.
I guess I'd just like to know if anyone else would choose this route if they felt they needed to or would you figure out a way to do it all yourself without tiring yourself out?
This thursday, the cleaning company (its the same one that comes to my office) is coming over and doing a spring cleaning. After that, they will be coming once a week for 4-5 hours on a thursday or friday, which means, I won't be spending my week-ends cleaning. I'l have more time to enjoy my time off and to have some relaxing moments with my boys.
What do you guys think???