When Tucson had to be put down, there really wasn't any choice. He was in excruciating pain, and it just happened so unexpectedly. I have to say that without a doubt it was one of the saddest, shocking experiences of my life. But in the end it was done for his wellbeing. It's hard to think about it, but in the end he was at peace. When the time came of Tucson being brought out all drugged, I stopped crying because I wanted our last moments together to be peaceful. And it was, I'm so sorry. . I'm so sorry you are having to go through this with Otis.