They found a lot of fluid in Ashley's abdomen (it was really distended)....that is really really really bad
, but are unsure where it is coming from. The doc said that generally it is something like a cancer, heart disease, etc. and that pretty much means INCURABLE. And, when asked if she would be here in a year, I was told, "Probably not".
OMG. I am a TOTAL WRECK right now. I did leave her so they could do some diagnostics on her to see if it is at least treatable. Man, it is going to cost anywhere from $1500-$2000, but I didn't know what else to do.
My husband is upset, as well, but he is taking on the stance of "If it isn't going to be curable, why carry on with the dianostics, etc to the tune of $2000?".
But then I am like, "How can I NOT at least TRY and help and make her comfortable?".
I am at a loss. I am not able to think clearly and am scared to DEATH of what this is going to do to me when Ashley ISN'T here...I mean, I totally expect to be devastated, but how to I maintain composure for my kids' sake?? How do I keep it all bottled up inside??
What would you guys do??? Would you just bring her home as is and let her live until she isn't here anymore?? Would you put her to sleep like now? Would you go through with the diagnostics?
My parents are totally going to pay the bill for us...but I want to do what is right, too.
And now I am sitting here really really upset and my 4 month old is in his swing next to me trying to get my attention by making his little happy baby noises....I look over at him and he smiles and I want to smile back at him to play along since that is what he wants and knows no better, but I am NOT happy....I am DISTRAUGHT as all hell.
I cannot even imagine what is going to happen when my 3 year old wakes up.
This is terrible.
OMG. I am a TOTAL WRECK right now. I did leave her so they could do some diagnostics on her to see if it is at least treatable. Man, it is going to cost anywhere from $1500-$2000, but I didn't know what else to do.
My husband is upset, as well, but he is taking on the stance of "If it isn't going to be curable, why carry on with the dianostics, etc to the tune of $2000?".
But then I am like, "How can I NOT at least TRY and help and make her comfortable?".
I am at a loss. I am not able to think clearly and am scared to DEATH of what this is going to do to me when Ashley ISN'T here...I mean, I totally expect to be devastated, but how to I maintain composure for my kids' sake?? How do I keep it all bottled up inside??
What would you guys do??? Would you just bring her home as is and let her live until she isn't here anymore?? Would you put her to sleep like now? Would you go through with the diagnostics?
My parents are totally going to pay the bill for us...but I want to do what is right, too.
And now I am sitting here really really upset and my 4 month old is in his swing next to me trying to get my attention by making his little happy baby noises....I look over at him and he smiles and I want to smile back at him to play along since that is what he wants and knows no better, but I am NOT happy....I am DISTRAUGHT as all hell.
I cannot even imagine what is going to happen when my 3 year old wakes up.
This is terrible.