Almond I miss her so much.

[karen1121]

Hello, my 10 year old little girl named Almond had been having chronic upper respiratory congestion x 4 months. I took her to the Emergency Vet in May and she was diagnosed with an Upper Respiratory Infection treated with antibiotics. Her symptoms improved and I took her to her regular vet a week later for a follow up. Her blood work showed elevated white blood cells. Her vet prescribed a different antibiotic. No improvement, she was put under anesthesia for a nasal flush and skull X-rays, nothing abnormal visualized on X-ray. She was given Cerenia nasal drops and yet a different antibiotic. Brought her back to the vet for a full dental/exam and cleaning with more X-rays. No abnormalities. She was started on a steroid injection and her symptoms improved tremendously. The shot lasted 2 weeks and symptoms returned. We changed her to a daily steroid, despite the negative X-rays her vet was highly suspicious of a nasal mass. I searched online for months, hoping and praying it was Chronic Rhinitis. The steroids were no longer helping her so I made an appointment with an integrative vet who examined her and she was given acupuncture. Almond was scheduled to see an internal medicine specialist in October for CT. The past week she has been having difficulty eating. The vet prescribed Mirtazapine with no improvement. I began syringe feeding her. I just knew something was wrong. On Wednesday evening she was showing obvious discomfort. The integrative vet prescribed Gabapentin for pain. I promised Almond she would never suffer. I took her to her regular vet yesterday morning. The mass had destroyed her sinuses. I made the decision to let her go. I held her paw the entire time and softly spoke to her. I told her how loved she is. I held her after she was gone and gave her a kiss and said I was sorry I couldn’t save her. My heart is broken. I can’t believe she is gone. This morning she didn’t follow me to the kitchen. Her absence, the silence. I miss her so much. I love you so much Almond. Yesterday you took a piece of my heart with you.

 

[straycat31]

Karen,
I am sorry for your loss. And I know this hurts in a way no one can understand. Let us know if you need anything.

 

[karen1121]

Thank you. I miss her so much.

 

[DeesCats]

I am so sorry for your loss of Almond, please accept my condolences as I know it is a difficult time.

 

[karen1121]

Thank you. I am heartbroken

 

[marshmallow2013]

I’m very sorry for your loss of your sweet girl, Almond. She was only 10, that’s hearbreaking. But you did everything you could to make her feel better and keep her comfortable. My deepest condolences.

 

[di and bob]

Sometimes we do all we can and it is still not enough......you did more than most and I hope you can take comfort in knowing you were there for her and gave her what she wanted most, your love and care. She is free now, no more discomfort and pain, you could not let that happen to someone you love so much. She thanks you for that.
The absence of their being in our physical lives is excruciating. It takes a long time to get used to a new life's order, and one without them in it takes all we have. it can be exhausting. Try not to dwell on her end, it brings nothing but pain. Her life has so many happy moments, she gave you so much. The memories of these times is so much more important. Her life had meaning, she was loved and cared for, and that is all she ever wanted. Take pride in knowing you gave her that. "Do not cry because it is over, smile because it happened."........
Her love is spiritual, so eternal. It will parallel your own life's journey forever. she lives on through you now, so send her happy, loving thoughts. She would like nothing more than to have you go forward into life and share what she so lovingly gave you, how to love. It would never replace her own, that could never happen, but would bring it sunshine and help it to grow even stronger. Just as you would want for her if you were the first to go.
My heart breaks for what you are going through, this is a journey we all take alone. No one knows the love you shared with that precious girl but yourself. no one else can feel yoru pain as deeply. Your pain is as deep as your love.
Time will bring some comfort, time is the only thing that helps. Be gentle with yourself, take one day at a time........RIP beautiful Almond. You will always be remembered, you will always have a secure place in a loving heart. May the good Lord bless and keep you, until you meet again!

 

[Mamanyt1953]

Rest you gentIe, AImond, dream you deep. Your pawprints are on someone's heart forever.

Now you have done the hardest thing we ever do...you put the weII-being of your beIoved cat before your own heartbreak. AImond Iived, breathed and had her being wrapped in your Iove, and she passed through the Gate between This Adventure and her Next Great Adventure with your love beside her to guide her way. Now, from That Place Where All Things Are Known, she blesses you, and she sends her love, translated and purified into Love, back to walk with you down through all of your days. Because Love abides. Always, forever, Love abides.