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Well, last night Carol asked if I was coming to bed and I told her I would be up soon. I came up about an hour later and she was on her side, facing away from where I would have been and was deep asleep. I stood there in the half light watching her and my heart broke for her and for whatever I have done - I turned off the light in the silence and walked away and slept on the spare bed. twas the longest night in years and I actually wept in bed which I never do. Yesterday, I even went to the place where Clive's ashes are but I did not feel any prescence of him at all, so I cried in the wind, the rain and the snow.
Dont think I have been as low as this for a while.
Today, things have been stagnant - not a lot said - we have been shopping for the month which I think may be good.
I have tried to hold my self back with chris, when he was acting up, I did not say anything. Just how is a 5 year old supposed to act.
Its all as normal here - just there is something between us that aint nice. She swears its no one else - so thats something.
What a weekend.
K
fighting for his marriage....
Dont think I have been as low as this for a while.
Today, things have been stagnant - not a lot said - we have been shopping for the month which I think may be good.
I have tried to hold my self back with chris, when he was acting up, I did not say anything. Just how is a 5 year old supposed to act.
Its all as normal here - just there is something between us that aint nice. She swears its no one else - so thats something.
What a weekend.
K
fighting for his marriage....