My baby is dying and I can't deal with it.

i am so sorry to hear you are going through this tough time - it is so hard (I take on oldies, so have had to go through it a few times), but I like to think that it is ending their pain and suffering and that it is the final act of love. My neighbour doesn't believe in euthanasia, whereas I strongly believe in it, but didn't think it was my place to tell him he it was extremely upsetting, very slow, and even made him think twice about euthanasia.
I would ring the vets on Monday and ask if there is any way to do a house visit, it might make it easier for you.

What a difficult weekend this will be. But at least the decision is made, that Monday is the day. If your vet is not able to come to your house, the dose of valium is a great idea. And like you said, she does not need to be alert at the vets office.

My last two pets that were pts went extremely peacefully...they just seemed to slip away. I hope it is so for Mozel, too.

Hugs and prayers to you and Mozel over the next few days. A sad time, but also precious, to share such a long love with a feline.

I am so sorry that you are in so much pain. You will see Mozel again someday, I will be thinking about you and Mozel this weekend.

I know this is a very hard situation for you to be in..I know you'll make the right decision even though it won't be easy. My prayers are with you.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and Mozel.

Yesterday am, I had myself convinced that she was making a comeback. She actually showed interest in food but didn't eat any except the tuna water. I had to force her food. She hadn't thrown up in several days so I was thinking I should give her more time, but she had thrown up by the time I got home. she wouldn't eat today either. more forced food. She doesn't want to sit with me. Just stays in her bed. I don't want her to suffer, and she isn't happy, but I am just fooling myself and prolonging her misery. We will be keeping our appointment tomorrow. Here is her picture. Her fur was so soft and fluffy. I've had her since she was 6 weeks old.

What a gorgeous girl she is Spend as much time as you can with her and just talk to her telling her how much you love her and give her scritches

Our hearts go out to you right now, and we'll all be thinking of you tomorrow

Beautiful girl! My thoughts are with you.

I know that today is "the day". Please know that the rest of us here at TCS are with you in spirit, and are bringing the traditional flowers, comforting teas, food albeit in "virtual" mode. When you feel up to it, please let us know how you are doing. And...Godspeed, Mozel - let the love of your meowmmy light your path over Rainbow Bridge.

It's done. I feel so bad, like I failed her. I should have worked a little longer, maybe she would've gotten better. I feel like my motives were selfish, because it was difficult to keep up with all the work. Or my motives were selfish because I couldn't stand to watch her wither. She was not happy though, she just laid in her bed in the corner. she didn't even want to be on my bed anymore, she stopped sleeping with me a few days ago. maybe a week, I don't remember, all I know is I am really sad and can't stop crying which is going to give me a headache, make my eyes all swollen tomorrow, and make me look like hell. You have all been very supportive and I appreciate it. It is easier to pour your heart out on a site like this as opposed to burdening your friends or making them feel uncomfortable. I do have supportive friends but I doubt they would want to go through the agony I am feelingm writing it down helps. My poor Mozel, I love her so much. My poor baby. I feel so helpless, I couldn't help her and I am beginning to hate money grubbing vets. The last one put her through so much torture. He took advantage of my distress. The *******. And I was with him because my regular vet didn't pay attention to me when I told him her symtoms. He was so cavalier. AS if I didn't know what I was talking about. I am so angry and mad, and sad. she was so pretty and soft. It is too late for regrets, I can't second guess myself.

Bless your sweet heart for caring so much for her. I am sure she knows how much you love her. Not past tense, because that love is forever.

Stay strong. You may not think you are, but time will show you some relief.

I'm so very sorry. You did what was best for her. It was her time and you did the very best and most loving thing you could possibly do for her. You found the strength and courage and love to let her go in peace and with dignity. I do know what your feeling.Its one of the hardest things to ever have to do.
Please don't second doubt what you did. It was her time. Hugs for you...

I was thinking of you today around 4 pm. Do not regret that you put her out of her misery. Looking at all the symptoms you mentioned, she was really at the end of her rope. 17 is so old for a cat, and just the fact she was not sleeping next to you anymore indicates a lot.

I hope the vet and his-her team were supportive and that Mozel went peacefully. I am sure she is waiting for you in her own Paradise.

Best of strengths,

Nathalie

I'm so sorry to be getting in on this so late. 17 is a wonderful old age for a kitty. I just can't imagine how wonderful a life she must have had with you! For the first time ever, I had to put a kitty down last year. He was barely 6 months old. It was so hard and so horrible. But be assured, that the peace you feel at the end ISN'T your being relieved it is over. It is true peace for your baby. You will cry, and your tears testify your love for Mozel. That is only natural, and you and she would have it no other way. But she will be waiting at the Rainbow Bridge for you, and in the meantime, just think how free from pain and young she will feel. And playing with all our beautiful Rainbow Bridge kitties. Hugs Kim

OH Gail, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Mozel was absolutely beautiful and must have brought you so much joy. I too had to let go of my 15 yr. old Tabby, Nermal this past Saturday. I've had nearly every emotion since (mostly sadness and tears), so I can certainly relate to your pain. I hope it gets easier, but you can bet we'll never forget our special girls......... Sending more virtual hugs your way {{{ }}}, Lori

Gail don't worry sweetie, Mozel is safely over Rainbow Bridge now playing with all the other cats and kittens

It's sad that the vet wasn't more sympathetic towards the situation though, but don't let that bother you because were here and that's all that counts

The best gift you could ever give is the gift of love. You gave that to Mozel her whole life and now she is free from the pain and suffering. The final hours are always the hardest and you will always wonder if you made the right choice.

We know how hard it is but we also know that we can't second guess ourselves during such events. Providing freedom from a life of suffering is the greatest gift for a loved one but it does come at a high emotional expense. But without the emotion we wouldn't be human.

RIP Mozel. Watch over Gail and help her through this emotional period since she really misses you.

Gail, you did the right thing; ending Mozel's was the greatest act of kindness you could have possibly given her.

She has gone on to that wonderful and special place called the Rainbow Bridge, and she is at peace.

Your love for Mozel will NEVER die, but the loss will become less painful with time. You will always remember her, and she will live on forever in a special place in your heart.

I am so sorry. Please dont feel like you failed her though, and you certianly weren't selfish, in fact the opposite - you knew she wasn't enjoying life and that there was nothign more that could be done for her, so you had to do the final act of love we give our pets, and it is hard. It is odd to feel at peace when a cat passes over, but I think it is because you know they were suffering, and that is no longer the case, nothing else.

i had to help my best friend of 15 years over the rainbow bridge in december and its so hard i miss her so much
im so sorry for your loss but you did what had to be done
time is a great healer i no longer cry everyday just everyother day!!
but really it does get easier and this site sure does help
just remember you did the right thing you stopped the pain and suffering and you should be proud of that
thinking of you xx