My loving mother received her hard earned wings on April 25th at 7:05
pm.
It started at 12:30pm and i never left her side until her last breath
came about. The longest and hardest day of my life. At the same time i
wanted her here but gone too because of the pain and suffereing. At
first the shock took over but then i came back and i know its best and
shes happy right now...at peace...with all of our loved ones.
I went to the funeral home and fixed her hair and makeup, i know how
she liked it...she was very picky! I felt so proud of myself
afterwards, never thought in a million years that i'd be able to do something
like that.
Visitation is tonight and the funeral is tomorrow at 1:00 pm. I wrote
a poem for her that will be read by a friend of the family...
"Through the Eyes of a Child"
Grief is not easy.
It is hard on the heart and the mind and the soul.
To lose someone youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve loved for your whole life long.
Even when you knew it would come;
Yes; even prayed it would come.
And release You from this bondage Youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve known.
We know it is best.
Your lifeâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s journey is done.
Our faith has You now
Safely at home.
In the arms of our God,
Who is holding You now
In His loving and comforting way.
Weâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ll miss you so much.
The One that you were
Before this illness happened to you.
You were good…you were kind…
You were loving and caring.
A good wife, mother, sister, and friend.
Now the time is really here.
The good-byes must be said.
Those that weâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve known for so long that we must say.
Still, grief isnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t easy…
It is hard
On our hearts
And our minds and our souls!
- Lori
Right now i'm very "flat-lined", kinda numb, i'm not sure if i really
know shes gone. Although i watched her being carried out --i dont know
if i have REALLY realized.
Her 50th birthday is May 10th and she said she wanted a big blow out so we're still gonna do that on May 12th in honor of her.
Another horrible note, my aunt has showed her selfish side AGAIN. I
wanted to go up to fix my mom with one person (that was so dear to my
mother) and my aunt stomped off and took off in the car. I was told my
mom step-dads mom to show her appreication...i flipped my lid.
Appreication for what? For hurting my mother, for cussing at her, for wanting to
strangle her, for making mom cry, for getting mad at me for calling a
nurse, for staying completly drunk the whole time, for stealing moms
meds and doping up, for stealing moms jewelry...no i dont think so. I have
bit my tongue for long enough only out of respect for my mother.
I just smile because i know my mom is looking down right now...karma
is a beautiful thing. My main focus is my mother and my sister right
now.
Lori d/o Shirley, age 49
1980 Cervical Cancer
May 2005 Breast Cancer **Survivor, cancer removed**
November 2005, started having seizures
December 2005 DX'd w/GMB IV
**None of the cancers are related**
January 2006, mom started radiation and chemotherapy
February 11, 2006, had some bleeding around tumor and the MRI showed a
great deal of growth.
February 13, 2006 mom was sent home on Hospice. Saddest day of my life.
Received her beautiful wings on 4/25/06 at 7:05 pm
pm.
It started at 12:30pm and i never left her side until her last breath
came about. The longest and hardest day of my life. At the same time i
wanted her here but gone too because of the pain and suffereing. At
first the shock took over but then i came back and i know its best and
shes happy right now...at peace...with all of our loved ones.
I went to the funeral home and fixed her hair and makeup, i know how
she liked it...she was very picky! I felt so proud of myself
afterwards, never thought in a million years that i'd be able to do something
like that.
Visitation is tonight and the funeral is tomorrow at 1:00 pm. I wrote
a poem for her that will be read by a friend of the family...
"Through the Eyes of a Child"
Grief is not easy.
It is hard on the heart and the mind and the soul.
To lose someone youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve loved for your whole life long.
Even when you knew it would come;
Yes; even prayed it would come.
And release You from this bondage Youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve known.
We know it is best.
Your lifeâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s journey is done.
Our faith has You now
Safely at home.
In the arms of our God,
Who is holding You now
In His loving and comforting way.
Weâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ll miss you so much.
The One that you were
Before this illness happened to you.
You were good…you were kind…
You were loving and caring.
A good wife, mother, sister, and friend.
Now the time is really here.
The good-byes must be said.
Those that weâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve known for so long that we must say.
Still, grief isnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t easy…
It is hard
On our hearts
And our minds and our souls!
- Lori
Right now i'm very "flat-lined", kinda numb, i'm not sure if i really
know shes gone. Although i watched her being carried out --i dont know
if i have REALLY realized.
Her 50th birthday is May 10th and she said she wanted a big blow out so we're still gonna do that on May 12th in honor of her.
Another horrible note, my aunt has showed her selfish side AGAIN. I
wanted to go up to fix my mom with one person (that was so dear to my
mother) and my aunt stomped off and took off in the car. I was told my
mom step-dads mom to show her appreication...i flipped my lid.
Appreication for what? For hurting my mother, for cussing at her, for wanting to
strangle her, for making mom cry, for getting mad at me for calling a
nurse, for staying completly drunk the whole time, for stealing moms
meds and doping up, for stealing moms jewelry...no i dont think so. I have
bit my tongue for long enough only out of respect for my mother.
I just smile because i know my mom is looking down right now...karma
is a beautiful thing. My main focus is my mother and my sister right
now.
Lori d/o Shirley, age 49
1980 Cervical Cancer
May 2005 Breast Cancer **Survivor, cancer removed**
November 2005, started having seizures
December 2005 DX'd w/GMB IV
**None of the cancers are related**
January 2006, mom started radiation and chemotherapy
February 11, 2006, had some bleeding around tumor and the MRI showed a
great deal of growth.
February 13, 2006 mom was sent home on Hospice. Saddest day of my life.
Received her beautiful wings on 4/25/06 at 7:05 pm
