I lost my precious Jackson Tuesday morning
between 5-6 a.m. He went outside with his 2
brothers and when I went back out to get them,
Jackson wasn't with them. I went around the
corner of the house and there he laid in the
road dead. I can't even remember being this
sad or feeling so much pain. He was such a
sweet boy. He and his 2 brothers were a matched
set. They all look alike and it is hard seeing
them without their brother. When I came home
yesterday, they were both laying at his grave.
That breaks my heart even more. I feel so many
different things right now. I am angry that he
is gone and so sad that I can't see him or hold
him again. He would look at you with his little
gold eyes with so much love that you just wanted
to kiss him forever. I know that this pain will
start to subside, but there is also a part of me
that doesn't want it too. Once I start feeling
better, than he will start to slip away from my
mind as often and I don't want that to happen.
I haven't felt this helpless in a long time and
I hurt physically I miss him so much. It is good
to know that othre people feel this way though
because I was thinking that I was a little crazy
for feeling so strongly. Everyone isn't quite as
understanding about this sort of thing as the people
here seem to be. God Bless you all.
between 5-6 a.m. He went outside with his 2
brothers and when I went back out to get them,
Jackson wasn't with them. I went around the
corner of the house and there he laid in the
road dead. I can't even remember being this
sad or feeling so much pain. He was such a
sweet boy. He and his 2 brothers were a matched
set. They all look alike and it is hard seeing
them without their brother. When I came home
yesterday, they were both laying at his grave.
That breaks my heart even more. I feel so many
different things right now. I am angry that he
is gone and so sad that I can't see him or hold
him again. He would look at you with his little
gold eyes with so much love that you just wanted
to kiss him forever. I know that this pain will
start to subside, but there is also a part of me
that doesn't want it too. Once I start feeling
better, than he will start to slip away from my
mind as often and I don't want that to happen.
I haven't felt this helpless in a long time and
I hurt physically I miss him so much. It is good
to know that othre people feel this way though
because I was thinking that I was a little crazy
for feeling so strongly. Everyone isn't quite as
understanding about this sort of thing as the people
here seem to be. God Bless you all.
I'm so sorry. I wish I could say something to make you feel better, but there is nothing but time. Time will dull the pain. I'm just so sorry. Jackson is happy, though, playing with all the other kiddens and pups at the bridge, so don't you worry. Keep in touch and write often if you have to, it helped me!
