My friend ended up not spending the night last night, but I did manage to sleep. This morning has been the worst though. I'm still in that phase where all I want is for things to go back to the way they were. It just hurts so much everytime I realize that I have no idea when I'm going to see him again. He had told me when we broke up that he would talk to me in a few days, and now I'm just wondering when that will be. I know he'll want to just talk on IM, but I'm not going to let that happen. It's not fair for him to not have to at least hear my voice, and so much is misinterpreted when done over the computer. I'm just still in so much shock and I just really miss having him around. He wasn't just my boyfriend of so many years but he was one of my best friends. Apparently he hasn't really been telling anyone. The only friend that knew was his roommate. One of our mutual friends came over last night and he had no idea what had happened, and he had even been at his place earlier that day for dinner! Once my friends and I told him he told us that at the dinner table Brendan had said something about being in a really hard place or something like that, but that he wouldn't continue on saying it wasn't appropriate for the dinner table. It just sounds like he's so confused and so am I! I just want some clarity and answers as to why he would drop a 3.5 year relationship over something like this. I mean according to him he's in a weird place and a tough spot...none of this makes sense to me. Thanks again for your support,and thank you for just letting me get all of this out on here.
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9/28/05 at 6:28am