Thank you all so much. It's extraordinary how I stumbled onto this group just a few hours before my, and Snuffly's, time of need. I can tell that most people I know, though they try to sympathise, don't really understand how beautiful and special my girls were, how painful it is to think of their suffering, and how hard it is to let them go. But here, everyone understands perfectly.
It was easier when Muffy (picture attached) left us last August. Because she was so old, had been with us for so long, and was so quiet and dignified, we all knew, her included, that she had given everything she could and it was time to move on. Also, of course, there was Snuffly to think of and care for. Now, though, there is just a huge, empty hole, and the dread that Snuffly went away in fear and pain.
I saw an earlier thread started by a tough old Army officer who was devastated at the loss of his little pal. If you're listening, big fella, believe me you're not alone. I may never have been an Army officer, but I'm a big guy in my forties who rides motorcycles, climbs mountains and stuff like that. I've had loss and pain in my life before, but I never would have believed that it was possible, as an adult, to feel as bad about the loss of anyone as I do right now.
Thank you all so much for listening.