I don't know how much I feel up to writing right now, but I'm feeling lousy emotionally & I really need some help & someone caring to listen and maybe talk to. As many of you may already know, my dear sweet wonderful Frisky kitty has been sick now for about a month. I've done everything I can to stay focused on him and keep my spirits up so I don't sink into a bad depression, but things have been like a domino effect. I don't know if anyone here is familiar with mercury in retrograde (astrology) but mercury rules all communications, including computers, phones, even talking & the weather, & when mercury goes retrograde, all these things go haywire. Those who understand the "retro" & are used to its effects usually say "what can go wrong will go wrong".
I mention this because when Frisky got sick it was right before or during when the retro started. The retro lasted and went from July 23 - Aug 15. As always, the effects were already felt 10 days b4 and will be felt 10 days after. Right around the time that Frisky got sick and the retro started I was having painful emotional problems because a dear friend and I could not reach each other and our communication connection was very askew. He lives in another country so our only method of communication is via instant messenger chat, email, and occasional phone and without those options unless we improve our telepathy we don't have anything else. *sigh* :'-(
Long story short, 1 thing after another went askew and we were barely able to stay in touch at all. This made me feel very discouraged & depressed & I found myself crying a lot in the bathroom just to have a few moments to myself. Sadly, my dear Frisky is still in the bathroom & he has to watch me & listen to me cry, which I know makes him feel bad too. Add to this pain hubby & I bickering & getting angry with each other with my crying alone again in the bathroom & I'm sure that poor Frisky is feeling the pain.
So, I wind up feeling bad all around - worried about my dear Frisky & feeling sad that he's not feeling well & on top of that feeling awful with the negativity between us & possibly making Frisky feel worse. :'-( I'm trying not to feel guilty & I so want to console & cuddle with my dear sweet Frisky, which I do occasionally, but the yucky gross smelly "crap" all over the floor makes it very difficult. But sometimes I force myself in tears because I just gotta hold him & make sure he knows how much I love him. And by the way, I'm following up on 1 or 2 good holistic DVM leads I was given by a few members and THANK YOU all so very much! :-) I emailed and will call Monday. Okay, well, if you want I'll see how I feel and I'll try to write a little and explain a bit more this evening or tomorrow. I really need a caring friend.
Please help,
thank you, from my heart,
Dayna Frisky's Mom
I mention this because when Frisky got sick it was right before or during when the retro started. The retro lasted and went from July 23 - Aug 15. As always, the effects were already felt 10 days b4 and will be felt 10 days after. Right around the time that Frisky got sick and the retro started I was having painful emotional problems because a dear friend and I could not reach each other and our communication connection was very askew. He lives in another country so our only method of communication is via instant messenger chat, email, and occasional phone and without those options unless we improve our telepathy we don't have anything else. *sigh* :'-(
Long story short, 1 thing after another went askew and we were barely able to stay in touch at all. This made me feel very discouraged & depressed & I found myself crying a lot in the bathroom just to have a few moments to myself. Sadly, my dear Frisky is still in the bathroom & he has to watch me & listen to me cry, which I know makes him feel bad too. Add to this pain hubby & I bickering & getting angry with each other with my crying alone again in the bathroom & I'm sure that poor Frisky is feeling the pain.
So, I wind up feeling bad all around - worried about my dear Frisky & feeling sad that he's not feeling well & on top of that feeling awful with the negativity between us & possibly making Frisky feel worse. :'-( I'm trying not to feel guilty & I so want to console & cuddle with my dear sweet Frisky, which I do occasionally, but the yucky gross smelly "crap" all over the floor makes it very difficult. But sometimes I force myself in tears because I just gotta hold him & make sure he knows how much I love him. And by the way, I'm following up on 1 or 2 good holistic DVM leads I was given by a few members and THANK YOU all so very much! :-) I emailed and will call Monday. Okay, well, if you want I'll see how I feel and I'll try to write a little and explain a bit more this evening or tomorrow. I really need a caring friend.
Please help,
thank you, from my heart,
Dayna Frisky's Mom
