Well, this morning has been the clincher for me. Mental breakdown, here I come! I'm supposed to go horseback riding with a few friends for my roommates birthday this morning, but when I got in my car to go....it wouldn't start. It won't even roll over. I'm thinking the battery is dead, but it seems fairly out of nowhere. This just feels like the straw that broke the camels back and I could really use some "stop raining on my parade" vibes, if anyone has any. I know it'll help a little bit to just tell you guys about it, so here's why I feel like I'm losing it.
A couple of weeks ago, a very close family friend died. I had known him for 13 years. He was a teacher with my mom, my 5th grade teacher, and practically part of the family. He was only in his late 50's. On top of that, the woman who is executor of his will is making a mess of things. She's been lying and destroying papers and unfortunately we don't have any proof that these papers existed beforehand, so there's not much we can do about it. All my family and this man's other close friends want is for his wishes to be carried out, and this woman (the executor) won't even give his close friends pictures that the man had of all of them or even a small trinket to remember him by. It's really been so upsetting. On top of that, the air in my car died. I've been driving in the Florida heat for 2 weeks now without air, and was actually going to get it fixed today...before my car decided to it didn't want to start at all. Another thing that's been so stressful has been the visitation center. We had to move buildings and the building we've been put in is a "sick" building. I have no idea what we're going to do. Things are not the way they were promised to us and the visits this past weekend were simply CHAOTIC! Not to mention our coordinator, the woman who holds everything together and is such an amazing support system, has put in her 2weeks. Lastly, one of my cousins keeps getting herself into trouble. She's going to be 26 in a matter of weeks and has a little girl, yet she's getting into fights and went to jail last week. She won't take responsibility for her actions and only wants to blame my aunt. Things just are feeling a bit overwhelming right now, and I could really use some good vibes for everything to sort itself out.
Thank you guys so much for listening to my really long rant. I needed to get that off of my chest, and there's not many people that I could just pour it all on like that!
A couple of weeks ago, a very close family friend died. I had known him for 13 years. He was a teacher with my mom, my 5th grade teacher, and practically part of the family. He was only in his late 50's. On top of that, the woman who is executor of his will is making a mess of things. She's been lying and destroying papers and unfortunately we don't have any proof that these papers existed beforehand, so there's not much we can do about it. All my family and this man's other close friends want is for his wishes to be carried out, and this woman (the executor) won't even give his close friends pictures that the man had of all of them or even a small trinket to remember him by. It's really been so upsetting. On top of that, the air in my car died. I've been driving in the Florida heat for 2 weeks now without air, and was actually going to get it fixed today...before my car decided to it didn't want to start at all. Another thing that's been so stressful has been the visitation center. We had to move buildings and the building we've been put in is a "sick" building. I have no idea what we're going to do. Things are not the way they were promised to us and the visits this past weekend were simply CHAOTIC! Not to mention our coordinator, the woman who holds everything together and is such an amazing support system, has put in her 2weeks. Lastly, one of my cousins keeps getting herself into trouble. She's going to be 26 in a matter of weeks and has a little girl, yet she's getting into fights and went to jail last week. She won't take responsibility for her actions and only wants to blame my aunt. Things just are feeling a bit overwhelming right now, and I could really use some good vibes for everything to sort itself out.
Thank you guys so much for listening to my really long rant. I needed to get that off of my chest, and there's not many people that I could just pour it all on like that!
