i'm not sure if i'm doing the right thing or not by posting this but ive got to let this out.
I've been married for 8 years we don't fight or scream and my husband don't abuse me but im not in love with ron and i haven't been for a very long time it seem's when i stopped drinking in april 2001 things in my life started to look differn't and when dad passed away last year things even started to change more in my life its kinda like im married but i live alone we do noughting together at all its like being room mates and im trying to find away out of this i go to church but he doesn't go with me and ive prayed on this and hoped he'd would go and i don't think its ever going to change and i notice some changes in him and i found out hes been drinking again and has been drinking for the past 5 months
sometimes i even think he may be cheating on me but i can't prove it i wish i would catch him then i would have all the reason to walk out on this marriage
i can't even say if i even know what love is or have i ever been in love i think alot of that has to do with my pass cause i was never sober up untill april 2001 and ive been drug free since 1987 can a marriage be saved when people live like this?
im 41 years old and ive got to find happiness in my life but yet i don't want to hurt ron by telling him i don't want to be married anymore i don't know even how im going to tell him what a mess this is going to be i did open up and talked to mom about this and she could see im not happy and haven't been happy for along time
is there anyone else out there that can relate what im going through? im sorry to bring my personal stuff up but i got to figure out what im going to do
thanks for listen to me
I've been married for 8 years we don't fight or scream and my husband don't abuse me but im not in love with ron and i haven't been for a very long time it seem's when i stopped drinking in april 2001 things in my life started to look differn't and when dad passed away last year things even started to change more in my life its kinda like im married but i live alone we do noughting together at all its like being room mates and im trying to find away out of this i go to church but he doesn't go with me and ive prayed on this and hoped he'd would go and i don't think its ever going to change and i notice some changes in him and i found out hes been drinking again and has been drinking for the past 5 months
sometimes i even think he may be cheating on me but i can't prove it i wish i would catch him then i would have all the reason to walk out on this marriage
i can't even say if i even know what love is or have i ever been in love i think alot of that has to do with my pass cause i was never sober up untill april 2001 and ive been drug free since 1987 can a marriage be saved when people live like this?
im 41 years old and ive got to find happiness in my life but yet i don't want to hurt ron by telling him i don't want to be married anymore i don't know even how im going to tell him what a mess this is going to be i did open up and talked to mom about this and she could see im not happy and haven't been happy for along time
is there anyone else out there that can relate what im going through? im sorry to bring my personal stuff up but i got to figure out what im going to do
thanks for listen to me