I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who prayed for little Jay. It really means so much to me.
i went in to visit jay around 530 this evening and got some very bad news. they did an ultrasound of his heart and found 2 defects and that his heart would stop for a second or two and then start back up. they said that there was nothing that could be done to fix his heart conditions.
they let me hold him and as soon as he saw me he started purring. he even opened his mouth a few times to meow. he was such a sweet baby and i think he was really starting to love me.
i had to make the decision to have him put to sleep. he was just going to suffer and i couldnt bear to see that. i had a towl his sister had slept on and wrapped him up in that and talked to him. i reminded him that everyone was praying for him and loved him and that he was such a brave little boy and how sorry i was that i couldnt help him. a few minutes after 6 he passed. he was looking up at me and purring right till the end.
i've never had to make that decision before and i am such a mess. hes the second baby i've lost in a little over a week now.
when i was leaving the woman who was with him this whole time came up to me and told me that she could tell how much he loved me because as soon as he saw me he would start purring and he wouldnt do that for any of them. it just about broke my heart.
i feel so bad about it all and that i should have done something sooner for him. i hope he knows how much i really love him and how sorry i am. thank you again for your prayers.