They called her Feral #3 & she passed away after Spay

Hello Kittens Mom , @KittensMom your story & adventure with Tera & her/your beloved Toad & Frog, has helped me so much to get through this sad weekend. There are so many "Teras" out there & its so sad. Here is "Feral #3" story. First off let me start by saying I feel so bad that we hadnt named her yet. She was one of 2 litters that was brought to my sons aunts house by the mom. The mom had been abandoned when the people who owned her moved away and left her to fend for herself . Anyway Mom brought two litters to the house (we finally got Mom fixed) this last litter there were six kittens and in the end only one ended up surviving we don't know what happened to the rest of them because they mysteriously disappeared . So we took her on Friday to get fixed at the local Humane Society. The kitten had been hard to catch because she really didn't like anyone to pet her but I had been working on her and she had come around but not much . So I caught her on Friday and we took her in and everything seemed OK. They called us at 3pm to pick her up at 4pmSo we got there at 4 we paid and they called us in a room. A tech came in the room and she said that the kitten had had a tough time in recovery twice. We thought she was going to say keep a good eye on her over night but then she said she passed away. We were devastated. They said her breathing was low & they put oxygen & she appeared better but then slipped away after the second time. I basically was in shock and didn't ask a lot of questions because I was frozen in time . She was an innocent little soul and the sole survivor of the last litter. she is survived by her older half-brother and older half-sister from the previous litter. they were fixed within the last months at the same place & we had no problems & we didnt even think in our wildest dreams/nightmares that she would die. and so now there's just the 2 half siblings left. The mom disappeared right before Christmas & we searched & searched for her but she was never found. The Kitten was adorable my sons Aunt was keeping her and the two siblings and we're just so sad that we couldn't bring their little half-sister home . I have cried & cried & regret putting her in that cage & seeing her scared & confused. I tried to console myself by saying that we did try to help her and tried to save her from the life that her poor mom had, abandoned, hungry & scared, and litter after litter . But I'm still crying as I type this and its been 3 days. I see her little face and I feel so bad .

This is her Half Sister from the previous litter. We had her fixed in early January with no problems

Kitty girl looked just like her big Sister (pictured). Unfortunately I never was able to get a picture of Kitty girl. That is her name now, Rest in Peace Kitty Girl !! You were loved [emoji]128156[/emoji]

My heartfelt condolences on your loss of Kitty Girl.  I know how heartrending it is to lose a beloved one, as I have endured it so many, many times.  Know that she watches over you with her siblings and that you will be reunited in due time.  I hope you will also be consoled by having saved her sister, who is so lovely. 

Tarasgirl06 said:

My heartfelt condolences on your loss of Kitty Girl.  I know how heartrending it is to lose a beloved one, as I have endured it so many, many times.  Know that she watches over you with her siblings and that you will be reunited in due time.  I hope you will also be consoled by having saved her sister, who is so lovely. 

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Thank you so very much !! I can't stop crying for her. My own 2 Cats know that something is wrong . Especially my Girl, she layed down beside me last night & didnt want to leave my side & she prefers to be on her own. Thank you again for your kind words. I know there are always risks but its hard to accept bcuz you want answers, did they OD her? did they not care bcuz she was semi-feral? those are the kinds of thoughts I have. She was loved as much as she could be (I was working on gaining her trust) & she was happy in the company of her half brother & sister, they were very very close. I still feel like I betrayed her trust in the end when she was panicked in that cage & crying to be let out.[emoji]128549[/emoji]

As with humans, any time one goes under general anaesthesia, there are risks.  The spay operation is generally considered extremely low-risk, but it is not entirely risk-free, and even if the risk is one in a trillion, if you or your loved one is "that one", the low risk obviously doesn't matter.  There are just so many questions in life that are not answerable, no matter what some people say or think.  We can never know while we are here, but I am confident that in due time, we will know all we need to know.  In the meantime, I am always consoled by knowing that so many of my loved ones are "up there watching" and safe in the Care of the One Who created all and Who Loves all.  Whatever your spiritual beliefs, I hope you are able to know this, too, for your Kitty Girl.  She knows you love her and that you have done right by her in every way that you have been able. 
(I don't know who made this picture or I would have asked their permission and credited them.  But I find it very beautiful and comforting.)

Bless your heart for loving Kitty Girl so much to try to offer her the best life possible.  I'm very sorry for the loss.  Losing an animal is particularly difficult when it happens suddenly and so unexpectedly.  Know deep down, even though it is not your fault or the vet's fault, that your feelings right now are very normal.  We want so much to blame someone or something, especially ourselves.  In a short time, you will know that everything you did was the right thing.  Time is a great healer. 

Kitty Girl is now in a place where there is no pain, no remorse, no sadness; a place where everything finally makes sense.  She knows you had her best intentions at heart.  She is chasing butterflies and will be waiting for you at the bridge.

Let your two cats help you heal.  Give them extra hugs and kisses and treats.  Kitty Girl wants you to be happy and most of all, she wants you to keep sharing your love.

*Beautifully expressed and felt!*

Orange&White said:

Bless your heart for loving Kitty Girl so much to try to offer her the best life possible.  I'm very sorry for the loss.  Losing an animal is particularly difficult when it happens suddenly and so unexpectedly.  Know deep down, even though it is not your fault or the vet's fault, that your feelings right now are very normal.  We want so much to blame someone or something, especially ourselves.  In a short time, you will know that everything you did was the right thing.  Time is a great healer. 

Kitty Girl is now in a place where there is no pain, no remorse, no sadness; a place where everything finally makes sense.  She knows you had her best intentions at heart.  She is chasing butterflies and will be waiting for you at the bridge.

Let your two cats help you heal.  Give them extra hugs and kisses and treats.  Kitty Girl wants you to be happy and most of all, she wants you to keep sharing your love.

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Thank you for your kind words. I told my Son thar sometimes I wished I didnt care so much., but I guess it is just who I am.

I'm so very sorry for your loss of Kitty Girl. I too have lost a rescue soon after rescuing them. I also recently lost my own 2 kitties (both rescues I kept). Please know that you were doing what was best for her, and there was no way for anyone to foresee the outcome. Kitty Girl is frolicking at the Rainbow Bridge where she knows nothing but happiness.


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ROCCityHope said:

I'm so very sorry for your loss of Kitty Girl. I too have lost a rescue soon after rescuing them. I also recently lost my own 2 kitties (both rescues I kept). Please know that you were doing what was best for her, and there was no way for anyone to foresee the outcome. Kitty Girl is frolicking at the Rainbow Bridge where she knows nothing but happiness.


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Thank you so much !! I'm still sad even though Its know any surgery is risky . It means alot, Thanks

Unfortunately I was [emoji]128532[/emoji] just notified that Kitty Girls half brother passed away this morning. He, his Sister & their half sister ( younger) Kitty Girl live(d) on my sons Aunts porch. They were from a Mom who was abondoned when the neighbors moved away. My Sons Dad just called to tell me the Half brother was found passed away in the street this morning [emoji]128532[/emoji] he buried him in the back yard. And I was thinking hard about Kitty Girl today. Maybe she was trying to tell me. So now there is only one Cat left & she is all by herself ! Tbey are all gone now, Mom, her 2 litters she brought to Sons Aunts house for safety,. My Sons Dad felt sad that he didnt make them indoor Cats but sons Aunt has COPD & she didnt want them in the house. But at least she had all of them fixed, even though they are all gone now, she tried & did do the right thing by fixing the cats & feeding them & providing them shelter. He was a big boy, fluffy & Dark Brown & beautiful with a very very friendly & mellow deneanor. I hadnt taken a picture of him & Im sad that he is gone. I have to pray now that he is happy to be with his Mom, his siblings, his half siblings including Kitty Girl[emoji]128156[/emoji][emoji]127752[/emoji] & that they are safe & at peace & playing in the warm breezy grassy meadows. Good Bye Big Beautiful Boy, I'm sorry I hadnt visited u since Kitty Girl passed away, but when I last saw you, you provided me a lil bit of joy & you must have known you'd never see me again bcuz it was the one time you approached me for petting, instead of me gently begging & waiting for you to come to me. Bye my Beautiful Boy, you are forever safe[emoji]128532[/emoji][emoji]128156[/emoji] forever young.

It hurts to lose one no matter what. You did nothing wrong and everything right. She lived a short life but without a spay she would have added to the misery of unwanted cats/kittens. My heart broke when I found where Tera had hers. Those 4 little lives that never got started. Thank you for caring for Kitty Girl.

  They are chasing butterflies in the sunshine where there is only joy and no pain or sorrow.  Hugs. 

<3 ((((((((^^)))))))) <3 Fly free, whole, happy, and forever Loved, Big Beautiful Boy! with your beloved family members.  

My mom had COPD and she would NEVER think of living without her beloved cat close to her.    Cats are essential for us, for our health, our lives and our joy.  

Orange&White said:

:grphug2:   They are chasing butterflies in the sunshine where there is only joy and no pain or sorrow.  Hugs. 

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Thank you for your kind words !! They soften the blow !! I take the passings harder than I should, but I cant change how I feel !! [emoji]128532[/emoji] Thank you again Im trying to visualize them all reunited & playing. He is buried underneath an Orange tree. For some reason it hit me harder today.

ROCCityHope said:

I'm so very sorry for your loss of Kitty Girl. I too have lost a rescue soon after rescuing them. I also recently lost my own 2 kitties (both rescues I kept). Please know that you were doing what was best for her, and there was no way for anyone to foresee the outcome. Kitty Girl is frolicking at the Rainbow Bridge where she knows nothing but happiness.


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Thank you so much for your kind words & caring.

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Thank you for your kind words !! They soften the blow !! I take the passings harder than I should, but I cant change how I feel !! [emoji]128532[/emoji] Thank you again Im trying to visualize them all reunited & playing. He is buried underneath an Orange tree. For some reason it hit me harder today.

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I lost a cat rather suddenly in September.  I still ache.  You are not alone.