Thanks everyone for your suggestions & your opinions. I haven't sent him an email or even talked to him today. For right now, I think I'm just going to cool down & let it flow on it's own.
As for him going apartment & furniture hunting, he did that on his own free will. I never asked him to go with me, he offered. I thought that was super sweet of him to do that & he really helped me a lot. As for him thinking it's wedding bells & etc, I wouldn't think that he'd be thinking that at all. I told him that I wasn't ready to settle down but if it happens that's fine. You just never know when the right guy comes along...or the wrong one for that matter. As for the commitment issue in a kiss, it didn't bother him before...even earlier this week. It's just one minute he's pushing forward & the next he's pulling back. So obviously he's scared of "what might be". I won't push him...I let him handle all of this on his terms.
Hissy, you nailed it. I'm lonely...I admit that. I truly think that might have been what pushed me off the deep end last night. The homesickness has started to settle in & it's scary to be completely alone. I can only talk so much to the kitties, ya know!
But once I start working, I'll be able to make new friends & the loneliness won't be so bad. It's just that right now all I've got is Ric up in Lincoln & obviously I'm pushing him too much.
Thank you all for making me realize what I've been doing & it's time for me to stop being so selfish about it. Hopefully, Ric & I can work this out and if not, I know I'll always have him as a good friend. That's the most important thing to me. A good friend in high school told me this saying & I've always thought about it in every relationship I've ever had:
"It is easier to make a friend a lover than making a lover a friend". Pretty true, huh?
Thanks again everyone! Sometimes I just need someone to ring my bell once in a while & make me see straight! That's what friends do, right?
Thanks for being my friend!