Thanks. This has been really hard on me. To be honest I've cried more in the last few days than I have cumulatively for years. Every time I hear a sad song I cry. Every time I try to go through pics and video of Ollie to make a memorial video or something to remember him by (before I somehow manage to accidentally lose these files), I start crying. I've barely slept in the last 100 or so hours, constantly replaying how things happened in my mind, wondering if I messed up, or if I could have prevented it to begin with. He was seen by the vet just a few months ago and got a Certificate of Good Health, so he could fly to Minneapolis with me. I want to call up the vet and ask them how did they miss this. But that wouldn't help. It won't bring him back.
The new cat is sweet, and loves me, but I just miss Ollie so much. Every day when I'd come home he'd have a hug ready for me. I just wish I had spent so much more time with him. I get the feeling I'm going to feel this way for a long time. He was so sweet and loving, the best I could ever ask for, and it is so wrong that this happened to him. He deserved so much more. It is so cruel that he didn't get to enjoy life longer, and that I didn't get to spend more time with him.
I just can't express how much I miss him.