**warning, long rambling post!!**
I got engaged in Feb 09, to a man I had met just 4 1/2 months prior, at age 25. My (now) husband was 28. While we had not known each other for a very long time, we both felt confident in our decision to become engaged, and were very happy together. Before actually proposing, my husband contacted my parents to inform them of his intentions (something that at the time was important to me. I had grown up always seeking my parents approval and wanted them to be okay with us becoming engaged) and they said they were happy for us. We began planning a wedding for Sept 09.
Right from the beginning, wedding planning was hard. My mother thought we would not have enough time, but I had always thought fall weddings were beautiful and wanted one. We began butting heads right away. She didn't like the small wedding we had planned, the location or really much about it. The day we brought pictures to her, to show the location, she cried but wouldnt say anything to me about it. She always complained that she didn't feel included but also hated everything I wanted. It was always "this is not the wedding i dreamed of for my only daughter" etc. We were paying for the ceremony, they were paying for the reception.
We chose to have a small ceremony in TN. Just the two of us, with my parents/siblings. My husbands parents are deceased, and he is not close with his siblings, so we wanted small ceremony, and everyone (about 150-200) were invited to a reception celebrating the marriage. My parents ended up feeling that the rest of the family would feel slighted and upset if they were not invited to the wedding. At their insistence, we invited up to 20 additional family members (at additional cost to us, as our ceremony site was only for up to 14 people, so we had to pay extra for additional people/possibly move the site).
In June 09 my parents came to the house my husband and I had just moved into. They had decided they no longer approved of us getting married. They felt my husband was controlling (that he was making me give up friends, and my dream wedding....which was not true. I was settling into a more domesticated life, my best friend had recently been married so we didn't see each other as much, and I wanted a wedding that suited both my husband and I, so he and I compromised on what we wanted)
It was a heck of a lot more then that. My parents had investigated him to try and find reasons for us not to be together. They did find a couple things in his past, however they are things he had disclosed to me, and nothing that would stop him from getting a job much less having a healthy relationship...However they felt that if he was going to be my husband, he needed to share every single detail of his past with them (which I felt was not okay for them to demand). The things they said and the way they handled things (in addition to other things I can't get into) lead to my parents not being invited to our wedding and us not having a relationship with them.
Twice, right before the wedding, my mother tried to tell me they were okay with us getting married now, and wanted to come, to which I declined. I had already sent out letters to everyone invited, letting them know we were planning to elope in a private ceremony, and that we would still hold a reception, only a small one at our home for family. So trying to become invited within a month of the wedding was not okay.
Throughout the past year, I have seen them a couple times. At Christmas, my mother cried...when I told her that our wedding pictures were lost. She accused me of trying to keep them uninvolved in the wedding, when infact our pictures were lost and I was completely broken up about it. Each time I have seen them it has been awkward, and uncomfortable and ends in my mother crying because I am not around. THey don't try to apologize, they stand by what they did and expect us to just forgive them and move on with things, like nothing happened, which is hard for both my husband and I. There is a lot that went on under the surface that I didn't get into in this post, so just imagine having your parents basically find fault with your spouse for something that is not your spouses fault and having your spouse feel completely betrayed by them.
If youre still reading, thanks. Sorry its long...the real point of the post..
My older brother is getting married soon. His wedding is 6 hours away from my home. My husband will not be going with me, as he refuses to be around my parents. I want to go because it is my brothers wedding and I want to be there to congratulate him. However, we have been having money issues, and fighting about the cost of my going to the wedding. Our cars keep acxting up, so I am going to have to rent a car for the day to get down there. We can't really afford a hotel room for the night, and we have no one to come watch the cats for the night. I am sure the cats will be fine, but we don't even know if we can afford christmas at this point, and the wedding is in Nov, so we are trying to watch our finances.
We ended up decided to rent a car, drive to the ceremony, and leave immediatly after. My husband won't go in for the ceremony, but I don't think I could drive there and back alone in the same day, so I begged him to at least come help with the drive. If we stayed overnight, we would have to pay for a hotel and an additional day on the rental car.
So basically, I am going down for the ceremony only, and skipping the reception. I kind of feel like I am being a bad person for skipping the reception. I have not told him yet that I won't be there for it. A couple of my friends said they honestly just would not go. I don't feel like that is an option I guess...I don't like hurting people or making them mad, and while I don't see my family often or talk to them often, I wouldn't want to hurt my brother by missing his wedding.
Is it stupid to drive down there just for the ceremony? Aside from not being able to afford to stay, a part of me is selfishly choosing to not go to the reception. I can't even watch wedding shows without breaking down. I hated my wedding. Our ceremony was rained out, so it was inside, just my husband and i, I had no wedding dress, I looked awful and we lost all our pictures. Our reception, just as bad. I spend all day cooking for a reception at our house, where only about 20 of the 60 invited guests showed up. Half my moms family declined to come, because my parents were not invited. Friends showed up super late. Barely anyone ate. Out of my three closest friends who were supposed to be bridesmaids, two didn't show up, and one showed up an hour and a half late because she forgot to try and get off work that day. I know the wedding is just a day, but I have been depressed over what happened with mine for the past year. That, plus how uncomfortable I feel around my parents, and the way certain family members try to push us together, I just think it would be wise to not attend the reception. (Last christmas, as soon as I walked into the family celebration, i said hello to some people, and my aunt told me I needed to go speak to my parents and made a scene about it infront of people...it was awful)
Basically, I am just trying to find out if I should be upset, just need to get over everything or what. I honestly don't know that I ever can just get over the things that happened, nor do I want to. Its been a lifetime of parental control leading up to them trying to map out my life for me, and I chose to not follow what they wanted. I don't want to hurt anyone by not attending the wedding, so I am trying to show some support in going to the ceremony, without putting an additional financial strain on my life and causing more emotional pain to myself.
I got engaged in Feb 09, to a man I had met just 4 1/2 months prior, at age 25. My (now) husband was 28. While we had not known each other for a very long time, we both felt confident in our decision to become engaged, and were very happy together. Before actually proposing, my husband contacted my parents to inform them of his intentions (something that at the time was important to me. I had grown up always seeking my parents approval and wanted them to be okay with us becoming engaged) and they said they were happy for us. We began planning a wedding for Sept 09.
Right from the beginning, wedding planning was hard. My mother thought we would not have enough time, but I had always thought fall weddings were beautiful and wanted one. We began butting heads right away. She didn't like the small wedding we had planned, the location or really much about it. The day we brought pictures to her, to show the location, she cried but wouldnt say anything to me about it. She always complained that she didn't feel included but also hated everything I wanted. It was always "this is not the wedding i dreamed of for my only daughter" etc. We were paying for the ceremony, they were paying for the reception.
We chose to have a small ceremony in TN. Just the two of us, with my parents/siblings. My husbands parents are deceased, and he is not close with his siblings, so we wanted small ceremony, and everyone (about 150-200) were invited to a reception celebrating the marriage. My parents ended up feeling that the rest of the family would feel slighted and upset if they were not invited to the wedding. At their insistence, we invited up to 20 additional family members (at additional cost to us, as our ceremony site was only for up to 14 people, so we had to pay extra for additional people/possibly move the site).
In June 09 my parents came to the house my husband and I had just moved into. They had decided they no longer approved of us getting married. They felt my husband was controlling (that he was making me give up friends, and my dream wedding....which was not true. I was settling into a more domesticated life, my best friend had recently been married so we didn't see each other as much, and I wanted a wedding that suited both my husband and I, so he and I compromised on what we wanted)
It was a heck of a lot more then that. My parents had investigated him to try and find reasons for us not to be together. They did find a couple things in his past, however they are things he had disclosed to me, and nothing that would stop him from getting a job much less having a healthy relationship...However they felt that if he was going to be my husband, he needed to share every single detail of his past with them (which I felt was not okay for them to demand). The things they said and the way they handled things (in addition to other things I can't get into) lead to my parents not being invited to our wedding and us not having a relationship with them.
Twice, right before the wedding, my mother tried to tell me they were okay with us getting married now, and wanted to come, to which I declined. I had already sent out letters to everyone invited, letting them know we were planning to elope in a private ceremony, and that we would still hold a reception, only a small one at our home for family. So trying to become invited within a month of the wedding was not okay.
Throughout the past year, I have seen them a couple times. At Christmas, my mother cried...when I told her that our wedding pictures were lost. She accused me of trying to keep them uninvolved in the wedding, when infact our pictures were lost and I was completely broken up about it. Each time I have seen them it has been awkward, and uncomfortable and ends in my mother crying because I am not around. THey don't try to apologize, they stand by what they did and expect us to just forgive them and move on with things, like nothing happened, which is hard for both my husband and I. There is a lot that went on under the surface that I didn't get into in this post, so just imagine having your parents basically find fault with your spouse for something that is not your spouses fault and having your spouse feel completely betrayed by them.
If youre still reading, thanks. Sorry its long...the real point of the post..
My older brother is getting married soon. His wedding is 6 hours away from my home. My husband will not be going with me, as he refuses to be around my parents. I want to go because it is my brothers wedding and I want to be there to congratulate him. However, we have been having money issues, and fighting about the cost of my going to the wedding. Our cars keep acxting up, so I am going to have to rent a car for the day to get down there. We can't really afford a hotel room for the night, and we have no one to come watch the cats for the night. I am sure the cats will be fine, but we don't even know if we can afford christmas at this point, and the wedding is in Nov, so we are trying to watch our finances.
We ended up decided to rent a car, drive to the ceremony, and leave immediatly after. My husband won't go in for the ceremony, but I don't think I could drive there and back alone in the same day, so I begged him to at least come help with the drive. If we stayed overnight, we would have to pay for a hotel and an additional day on the rental car.
So basically, I am going down for the ceremony only, and skipping the reception. I kind of feel like I am being a bad person for skipping the reception. I have not told him yet that I won't be there for it. A couple of my friends said they honestly just would not go. I don't feel like that is an option I guess...I don't like hurting people or making them mad, and while I don't see my family often or talk to them often, I wouldn't want to hurt my brother by missing his wedding.
Is it stupid to drive down there just for the ceremony? Aside from not being able to afford to stay, a part of me is selfishly choosing to not go to the reception. I can't even watch wedding shows without breaking down. I hated my wedding. Our ceremony was rained out, so it was inside, just my husband and i, I had no wedding dress, I looked awful and we lost all our pictures. Our reception, just as bad. I spend all day cooking for a reception at our house, where only about 20 of the 60 invited guests showed up. Half my moms family declined to come, because my parents were not invited. Friends showed up super late. Barely anyone ate. Out of my three closest friends who were supposed to be bridesmaids, two didn't show up, and one showed up an hour and a half late because she forgot to try and get off work that day. I know the wedding is just a day, but I have been depressed over what happened with mine for the past year. That, plus how uncomfortable I feel around my parents, and the way certain family members try to push us together, I just think it would be wise to not attend the reception. (Last christmas, as soon as I walked into the family celebration, i said hello to some people, and my aunt told me I needed to go speak to my parents and made a scene about it infront of people...it was awful)
Basically, I am just trying to find out if I should be upset, just need to get over everything or what. I honestly don't know that I ever can just get over the things that happened, nor do I want to. Its been a lifetime of parental control leading up to them trying to map out my life for me, and I chose to not follow what they wanted. I don't want to hurt anyone by not attending the wedding, so I am trying to show some support in going to the ceremony, without putting an additional financial strain on my life and causing more emotional pain to myself.