I can't believe I'm writing this

Oh Jessy, what a hard decision, but it was the right one and I am sure Villy would thank you for it. Your vet sounds very caring and I am glad you had his support to see you through. Good vibes for you and Roxy, that you can comfort each other.

Jessy, I'm so sorry. I has to be one of the hardest things we ever do, but sometimes the best way we can love them is to let them go. Breathe freely at the Rainbow Bridge, sweet Villy.

I'm so sorry for your sad loss I sure know how that feels, I know most of us do...let it be some comfort to you that others understand. You did the right thing letting Villy be at peace! Take care....

I´m really so sorry for your loss...
RIP to Villy... .
Hope this hug can confort to you a bit... ...

My heart sank when I saw the other thread locked - I knew then what I would find here.

Play happily over the Rainbow Bridge, Villy.

Fly high sweet Angel Villy
Hugs to you and Roxy
I'm so sorry for your loss :cry:

Originally Posted by otto

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved Villy, My heart is breaking for you. You were very Brave and did what was best for her, and now she is waiting for you at the Bridge, free of sickness.

I followed her illness thread but don't know her story of how she came to you four years ago. When you feel up to it would you mind sharing it? (or provide a link if there is a thread on it)

Roxy will miss her too, take comfort in each other. It's a terrible thing to go through, for both of you.

xo

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Hi there, thanks everyone, your kind words are really helping.

Villy came home to live with me on valentines day 2005. At that time I worked opposite an animal shelter. I wanted to share my home with a cat, and I asked a neighbour, who worked at the shelter, if she would recommend any cats in particular, as I'd never had a cat before. She recommended Villy. Villy was approximately 7 years old and was put in the shelter with another cat becasue her owners had moved to Egypt. The other cat had been adopted out seperately. I went and found her, this teeny little black and white bundle, all scrunched up and hidden away in a little cat house, in a run with several other cats. She wouldn't come out of the cat house, so I went to visit her everyday in my lunchour, and just sat on the concrete outside her house, talking quietly to her. Eventually she came to expect me and would venture out to see me. When it was almost time to bring her home I slept in a t-shirt and left it with her so that she could get used to my smell.
She came home with me and we were together ever since. She quickly tought me how to look after her! Her hungry meow and her 'let me out' meow. And how she followed me around the house, chatting away to me, giving me headbuts and non stop meows when I returned after a day at work, she always had so much to tell me. She always used to cheer me up. She was an amazing cat and I was lucky to share her life for 4 years.

I've made this slideshow of her, and I really want to put it to music, but I don't know how.

This is the slideshow:

http://s3.photobucket.com/albums/y88...t=a6f95f48.pbw

And this is the song:

Actually - I want to put her slideshow to a song by the kinks - 'days'

Villy's slide show was precious. She looks so much like my Inky (1969-1974) and my Dusty (2000-present). I am so, so sorry for your loss and what you are going through.

I'm so sorry for your loss.



Elizabeth, Whimsey, Merlin, Fancy, & Magic

My sympathy for your loss! RIP Villa

I couldn't see to give my cat his am insulin because of the tears. That should tell you that the story of Jessy and Villy has touched someone thousands of miles away. When you get feeling better, try and find out all you can about chylothorax and heart disease. I did that with Spot and my diabetic cat Farly Velcro. Coming to the Catsite is a form of therapy for me. I think it's important to try to help others in their names. Hence, my name, farlyv. Each time I contribute my opinion on an issue here, I do it with my old friends in mind. As they say, if I help just one person, their death was not in vain. I can understand the pain. Been through it soooooo many times. You write so descriptively about your little friend, I feel I know her. Only time will help. I hope you are able to keep her ashes. That will be a comfort for you. If I was there, I'd give you a big hug and put a flower on her grave. We all are thinking of you and praying for you and Vill. God bless and keep us informed of your progress. Villy was quite a girl, and you are quite a mom! Shannon

She certainly was a gorgeous girl. Also read her story. You were so dedicated to her from the start. Loved the pics. Her in the garden shrubs was great. I bet it was one of her favorite places to stalk the wild beasts!She looks alot like my cat Slick. There is something about a black and white kitty! Telling her story hopefully makes you feel better. We love hearing about her and we will always remember that little cat from England who touch our lives in the states and around the world. Be proud mom!!

Thanks Shannon.

It's lovely to know that we have support from all the way in New York.

Thanks for getting in touch, I'm sorry your furbaby was affected by this awful disease too.

I'll never know, what if I'd let them do that one more surgery - would she have had a few more years? Or would it have simply extended the suffering? I worry that I made a decision too quickly, although it was something that I'd thought about a lot. Her chest was completely fluid - the vet could barely hear her heart sounds for all the fluid muffling the sounds, so we had to decide quickly. We could have drained her chest and then had a couple more days to decide. But then even a chest drain and going in an oxygen chamber would have been more trauma for her, more time alone in the scary vets.

I can't change it now. I miss her so much. I keep forgetting that she's not there, and i'll save her some butter from my toast, or make mashed potato, which she used to love, and i'll think, oh, I'll give Villy some of that - oh no I won't :-( I keep waking up at 3am, looking across at her bed and wondering where she is.

xx

Please don't second-guess yourself Jessy. I believe you absolutely did the right thing to prevent her suffering. Waiting would only have prolonged it. It is natural to wonder "what if". We all do it when we have to make that awful decision. Villy is at peace now. You helped her do that and she loves you for it.

I know it is impossible right now and you will never stop missing her, but eventually you will be able to remember the good times more than the bad.

Thank you.

I have a locket and I have put a picture of Villy in it on one side, and a picture of Roxy on the other so that they are still together in there. It's comforting to have my girls with me all the time.

the "ultimate kindness" I had the same regrets and questions. I drove myself crazy for months over sweet Spot. I cried all the time it seems. She was only 2 years old and had lived as a feral for 1 of those years. I kept thinking, should I have brought her in sooner, WHY didn't I bring her in sooner. I still do. But as I said, research this nasty disease. Knowledge is power. It will give you power over the second thoughts you are now having. Everytime I read how devastating this disease is, I felt a bit stronger. A piece of doubt fell away from my heart. I searched this site for anyone who may have had the same problem. I think there was only 1 or 2. It is that rare. Villy had a good long life. She never wanted for anything in your care. Sit back, smile and look up at Heaven. Go outside and breathe deeply and give thanks to God that he gave her to you. I truly believe she is in Heaven, maybe with sweet Spot. If you ever want, PM me and I will give you my e mail address. Maybe between us, we can help others with support. God Bless you, Villy and Roxie.

Dear Villy,
1 week and 1 day further on. I miss you so much. Roxy misses you too, and so does everyone else.
I hope you are playing happily at the Rainbow Bridge. Say Hi to Brain when you see him up there.
I love you my baby, thank you so much for the wonderfull time we spent together xxx

Oh gosh Im so sorry for you. I was thinking about you and Villy today but for some reason didnt want to come into here and read anything because I was so worried for you both. I hope you and Roxy are ok and coping together and Villy many happy walks over the bridge thru your own special garden!! Im sending you all love and happiness from Pa...Im so sorry for your loss Jessy.