I haven't been on much lately. Just been busy with what life has thrown at me. My dad is really sick and so I have to make sure he comes first. There will be times where I will do little things for myself to get away. I have some wonderful friends that I can talk to that have really helped me. Of course, they are always much older than I am.
My best friend has been a real jerk lately. She is very possessive, negative about being back here, and always wants things done on her terms. I am tired of her negativity and no matter what I do to try to make it positive for her, she just doesn't seem to care. She also never listens to any advice I give her. Her boyfriend is also dragging her down and I have really been disappointed in her and her maturity level. I am ignoring her for now. I haven't even told her about my dad and now I have decided she doesn't deserve to know.
I was seeing a guy I knew in high school and things were going great. Over time, his mom kept telling him how much she hated me (for unfounded and irrational reasons) and they were getting into heated arguments all the time. He had said he loved me, but I don't know if I believed him. His mom had too much influence over him and I don't know if he started to believe the lies she told him about me. I hate her for her selfishness, bitterness, and narrowmindedness. Her son will never live his own life because of her. So last friday - he chose his family over me and dumped me for the second time. His family has some serious problems and I feel sorry for them.
So now that I have all this crap thrown at me I'm trying to find a way to start over. My real friends have really helped me by just talking to me. I am trying to get all the toxic people out of my life because I just need that right now.
I am now trying to find things to do that make me happy. I would like to be married and have a family, but that may not happen at this time. I am also going to try and change things about myself that I know I need to improve on.
Why is it that all the people I know that are my age are just not set on any goals or have the maturity level they should have?
My best friend has been a real jerk lately. She is very possessive, negative about being back here, and always wants things done on her terms. I am tired of her negativity and no matter what I do to try to make it positive for her, she just doesn't seem to care. She also never listens to any advice I give her. Her boyfriend is also dragging her down and I have really been disappointed in her and her maturity level. I am ignoring her for now. I haven't even told her about my dad and now I have decided she doesn't deserve to know.
I was seeing a guy I knew in high school and things were going great. Over time, his mom kept telling him how much she hated me (for unfounded and irrational reasons) and they were getting into heated arguments all the time. He had said he loved me, but I don't know if I believed him. His mom had too much influence over him and I don't know if he started to believe the lies she told him about me. I hate her for her selfishness, bitterness, and narrowmindedness. Her son will never live his own life because of her. So last friday - he chose his family over me and dumped me for the second time. His family has some serious problems and I feel sorry for them.
So now that I have all this crap thrown at me I'm trying to find a way to start over. My real friends have really helped me by just talking to me. I am trying to get all the toxic people out of my life because I just need that right now.
I am now trying to find things to do that make me happy. I would like to be married and have a family, but that may not happen at this time. I am also going to try and change things about myself that I know I need to improve on.
Why is it that all the people I know that are my age are just not set on any goals or have the maturity level they should have?