Thanks guys for all your good thoughts! I REALLY need them right now...
As promised, I called the rescue group again when I got home, and this time she answered. She obviously never got my message about what happened.
To make a long, sad story short, she was extremeley verbally abusive and made it quite clear that it IS my fault. She went as far as saying "I knew I should never have given them to you, I had a bad feeling about you." And "If anything happens to those babies, so help me..."
I mean, I knew I'd be in trouble, but everything she said was SO painful. And I expected her to offer solutions and try to help. Instead she just yelled at me and told me I'd better find her. I told her I'm really sorry and she said "YOU?? What about me??"
What really gets me is that, as I said in my first thread about these guys (http://www.thecatsite.com/forums/sho...d.php?t=168436
), she told us "mommy was an "outdoor cat", but in the sense that she is a stray and an older gentleman was feeding her". Here's an excerpt from my original emails with this group: Experience: None. Would prefer healthy for the reason stated above, and not feral or semi-feral due to lack of experience.
Now, keeping that in mind- that they told me she was just an outdoor cat and NOT feral, and that I specifcally said NO FERALS- listen to this: When I told her how it happend, her reaction was "WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?? SHE'S FERAL!!!".
What's really sad is that I really was enjoying fostering. This is my first time and it was a great experience. Now I've spent the last 4 hours bawling my eyes out and desperately trying all my resources (not many) to catch a feral cat I couldn't catch in the house... I don't think I'll ever be able to sleep again.
The only good news is that since mommy was a bad mommy to begin with, we were already supplementing, so they are semi-used to bottles and this isn't as big of a shock as it might be to them. So despite her threat to me, they are being well taken care of. Mommy would be better for them, of course, but they're not that bad off.
So PLEASE keep sending vibes that mommy returns to her kitties!!
PS- sorry for any typos, I'm really upset now...