Well I am not happy I am worried scared and I can not stop crying I have been since 9 this morning. I went to doctor she is only weight is 5lb 1oz really small. My BP was so high they thought I would have to go deliver now. We got it down and I am on complete 100% bedrest and I have to lay on my left side at all times even leaning in chair. I have appt every other day and if she shows stress again they will take her ASAP. Abby isn't doing well. My BP is not letting her get what she needs that why all the rules. Because she is small they are trying to get me to stick it out at least 2-3 weeks at most. How she is laying and engaged they do not want to try to do a amnio so I get steroids. I was hooked up for 4 hours and all looks great right now. When I go to get out of bed I have to take my BP medication and then raise and take it easy for 30 min then relax and at 10 I have to take 2 more BP meds and relax more and again at 3pm I take 2 more and then at bed I take 1 pill. They don't want her to be stressed out so I have no choice but to keep going. He did say she might have a cone head because she is deeply engaged and I will need a c-section unless when I go in to labor we show no signs of stress. I lost another pound which he isn't happy with but said it was ok lets just give her a few more weeks and hope for a 6pounder. He said if I do go in to labor before then it was ok it means Abby needs out now and he is ok with that. I am just scared. I did not want another surgery but I can not keep my BP down. Worries me the boys worry something will happen like there dad death. It is so complicated and frustrating and scared at the same time. I have my laptop no clue if hospital has WIFI but I will try to ask. I will need it to stay sane in there. Good thing is my boys the day after surgery can stay in the room with me and play games and watch my TV as long as they stay in my room and are quit. I live in a town of 300 people there is only 1 surgery room and 2 labor rooms trust me they will be ok. Just worried about the day of delivery and the day I go home. I just want it all to be ok. Honestly if I had to have a c-section today I would of been ok I am so tired sore and I can not walk. Even the doctor said I looked like crap. Sorry I am just scared I guess.
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3/19/07 at 5:20pm