You don't need to respond here...there really isn't anything left to say that hasn't already been said. I just wanted to say how much I appreciate all your support, and kind words, and for thinking of me during this hard time for me. I hope you will forgive me for being such a downer lately, I am not normally like that. I know there are probably some people who get tired of hearing me whine about going back to work, and for that I apologize....it has just been weighing so heavily on me and this is the place I feel safe to come and air my feelings and I feel so lucky to have had you all to lean on these past few weeks. Thank you so much for bearing with me. I will get back to my old fun loving slef very soon I am sure.
I have the diaper bag ready, the bottles made and in the fridge, and the alarm set to go off early tomorrow morning. I am all ready. Just not emotionally. I am tired of crying though...it does no good, I hope you all don't think I am making a big deal out of nothing...it's just, this is my first and only baby, and I never dreamed how attached to her I would get or how hard it would be to go back to work and leave her behind. I knew I would love her of course, but the bond is so deep. I feel like she is part of me, and it would be easier to just cut off my hand and leave it behind.
Thanks to everyone for putting up with my emotional rollercoaster, and I just wanted to tell you how much it has meant to me.
One good thing...I won't have to work Saturday's for awhile like I thought I would, so that is good news! They stopped making it mandatory (for now anyway) so I will still have weekends with my little pumpkin!
I have the diaper bag ready, the bottles made and in the fridge, and the alarm set to go off early tomorrow morning. I am all ready. Just not emotionally. I am tired of crying though...it does no good, I hope you all don't think I am making a big deal out of nothing...it's just, this is my first and only baby, and I never dreamed how attached to her I would get or how hard it would be to go back to work and leave her behind. I knew I would love her of course, but the bond is so deep. I feel like she is part of me, and it would be easier to just cut off my hand and leave it behind.
Thanks to everyone for putting up with my emotional rollercoaster, and I just wanted to tell you how much it has meant to me.
One good thing...I won't have to work Saturday's for awhile like I thought I would, so that is good news! They stopped making it mandatory (for now anyway) so I will still have weekends with my little pumpkin!