I let my little soulmate go this morning. He had IBD and was not responding at all to treatment. I did whatever I could for him with the GI vet and chemotherapy, prednisone, you name it, I did it. But our regular vet said that he suspected he probably had lymphoma along with the IBD because he's never seen anyone go down so quickly and be so non-responsive. Yesterday when I came home I saw he had been violently ill during the day and it broke my heart that he had to spend a day like that, all alone. He must have been so scared and in so much pain. The IBD was so bad his colon had swollen almost shut.
I know I am not alone and there are many of you on here who are also grieving. I believe we are all wonderful cat moms and dads who made the right decisions. I knew this day was coming and I'm sure many of you did too. It's just so hard to come home and see their stuff, blankets, even the couch we took naps together on. I don't know what to do with myself right now..... I'm afraid to go lay down because whenever I would do that, Timmer would be there with me.
I have another cat in the house. She is not as affectionate as he was. I hope in time that she relaxes and we build our relationship up more. Timmer and Lupita never got along, you see, and I had to have one cat live upstairs and one live downstairs. We had a crazy eight years together. I had always hoped they would get along but they never did and he was pretty aggressive towards her. I did my best to love them both, spend time with both, alternating letting each cat sleep with me. Somehow we made it all work in our own weird quirky way.
I would give anything to have more time with Timmer. I am really devastated and in shock right now. And so very very scared to live without him. I know it's all raw now and will take some time. I won't get another cat. I want my remaining cat to have peace in her life and she didn't have that with him in the house.
God bless all of you who are grieving. Be kind to yourselves.
I know I am not alone and there are many of you on here who are also grieving. I believe we are all wonderful cat moms and dads who made the right decisions. I knew this day was coming and I'm sure many of you did too. It's just so hard to come home and see their stuff, blankets, even the couch we took naps together on. I don't know what to do with myself right now..... I'm afraid to go lay down because whenever I would do that, Timmer would be there with me.
I have another cat in the house. She is not as affectionate as he was. I hope in time that she relaxes and we build our relationship up more. Timmer and Lupita never got along, you see, and I had to have one cat live upstairs and one live downstairs. We had a crazy eight years together. I had always hoped they would get along but they never did and he was pretty aggressive towards her. I did my best to love them both, spend time with both, alternating letting each cat sleep with me. Somehow we made it all work in our own weird quirky way.
I would give anything to have more time with Timmer. I am really devastated and in shock right now. And so very very scared to live without him. I know it's all raw now and will take some time. I won't get another cat. I want my remaining cat to have peace in her life and she didn't have that with him in the house.
God bless all of you who are grieving. Be kind to yourselves.