I have now handed in my notice at work. It's a bit of a sticky situation really as I'm not actually going into another job so this may sound kind of stupid but there is a lot of reasons why I had to leave, the main being treated unequally within my company compared to the others in the office. A colleague called me an idiot, simply for not securing something beforehand but I knew (As I had tried before) if I had continued on whilst searching for a job I would have become stuck in my job again. I started looking last year for work and my manager, who knows most managers who work in offices (My town is small) was, behind my back, telling them not to take me on. I realised I couldn't then leave as I'd have no money at all and rewind to now, I am still stuck..
Well, actually not now as I leave on the 2nd of May. This may sound a stupid decision but I just can't stay in my job any longer. I know you're lucky if you have a job today and I am thankful to my company for ever giving me a job but it's time to spread my wings and fly. That, and I'm young (Not even twenty) and I need to start realising what I want to do with my life whilst I am young and try new things and do some exploring. You only live once. I just don't want to be stuck in a crap job ten years down the line and know I can't do anything else as the time is too late. A lot of colleagues in work even said they're trapped and know they can't do anything else with the work experience they have but can't leave as the money is too good.
I just want that job satisfaction really and to say to myself in the future 'I've worked hard for my job and have achieved something with my life'
Is this selfish when so many people out there are desperately trying to get into employment? I'm just so miserable in work and its affecting my person life too. OH has taken too much abuse from me when I get home from work because I'm still in work mode and he just happens to be standing there.
I even tried to speak with my manager on how I felt and it was spat back in my face. I think I realised then on what sort of company I work; One who doesn't care about how their staff feel, only the money they make and the targets being smashed.
I'm thinking of going back to college in September and studying Physcology but it seems everytime I become interested in something someone puts me down by saying it would be too hard for me, you'll get no good career in that field, etc...
Anyway, a new start. I'll only know down the line if I've made a stupid decision. For now though, I feel positive and as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulder.
Sorry, long ramble.
Well, actually not now as I leave on the 2nd of May. This may sound a stupid decision but I just can't stay in my job any longer. I know you're lucky if you have a job today and I am thankful to my company for ever giving me a job but it's time to spread my wings and fly. That, and I'm young (Not even twenty) and I need to start realising what I want to do with my life whilst I am young and try new things and do some exploring. You only live once. I just don't want to be stuck in a crap job ten years down the line and know I can't do anything else as the time is too late. A lot of colleagues in work even said they're trapped and know they can't do anything else with the work experience they have but can't leave as the money is too good.
I just want that job satisfaction really and to say to myself in the future 'I've worked hard for my job and have achieved something with my life'
Is this selfish when so many people out there are desperately trying to get into employment? I'm just so miserable in work and its affecting my person life too. OH has taken too much abuse from me when I get home from work because I'm still in work mode and he just happens to be standing there.
I even tried to speak with my manager on how I felt and it was spat back in my face. I think I realised then on what sort of company I work; One who doesn't care about how their staff feel, only the money they make and the targets being smashed.
I'm thinking of going back to college in September and studying Physcology but it seems everytime I become interested in something someone puts me down by saying it would be too hard for me, you'll get no good career in that field, etc...
Anyway, a new start. I'll only know down the line if I've made a stupid decision. For now though, I feel positive and as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulder.
Sorry, long ramble.