Hi Everyone
I am hoping this post does not fall on deaf ears. Today has been immensely frustrating for me........ really this whole week, has been horrible.
As a lot of you know, I am currently in pre-med. What others may or may not know is that I also receive SSDI (Disability) benefits and recently have been healed of and recovered from the borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder. Today, I receive my "CDR" (Continuing Disability Review) in the mail, and it informs me that they MAY deny immediately if I have been non-compliant with my doctors orders.I haven't seen my Dr or taken meds in nearly a year, I haven't needed them and have been doing so much better........ now I'm worried that without income, I don't know what will happen.
I can get a job, yes- however, I am in school full time and without transportation, I am limited to the very basic rider request transportation we have here. They don't run weekends, and only run until 5 PM at night. I have school Tues & Thur from 9 AM - 3 PM. This does leave Monday & Wednesday open...... but then again, most employers want you to work weekends & evenings, I doubt they will understand if I explain I have to rely on TAPS.
The next frustration is this: My dad informs me today (after months of being very supportive in me going back to school) that me wanting to go to med school is a "delusion of grandeur" or a "Grandiose Episode". And informs me that I have been doing much better, but now I am walking that fine line between doing "bad enough to still need disability and good enough to be cut off"......
I wonder, in the opinions surrounding us here- is it unrealistic for a 27 year old to have a goal of getting into med school? All I have ever wanted to do is be a doctor.............. and my entire life I was told I can't, because of grades--- but now it seems a possibility, unless I am completely delusional and not thinking straight......... maybe I am in some grandiose episode and just won't admit it.
The point is, I am super frustrated and quite possibly on the verge of tears. My hubby is basically being non-supportive, and the best friend I do have- isn't answering his phone right now.
Thanks for listening....... any thoughts are welcome.
Mel
I am hoping this post does not fall on deaf ears. Today has been immensely frustrating for me........ really this whole week, has been horrible.
As a lot of you know, I am currently in pre-med. What others may or may not know is that I also receive SSDI (Disability) benefits and recently have been healed of and recovered from the borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder. Today, I receive my "CDR" (Continuing Disability Review) in the mail, and it informs me that they MAY deny immediately if I have been non-compliant with my doctors orders.I haven't seen my Dr or taken meds in nearly a year, I haven't needed them and have been doing so much better........ now I'm worried that without income, I don't know what will happen.
I can get a job, yes- however, I am in school full time and without transportation, I am limited to the very basic rider request transportation we have here. They don't run weekends, and only run until 5 PM at night. I have school Tues & Thur from 9 AM - 3 PM. This does leave Monday & Wednesday open...... but then again, most employers want you to work weekends & evenings, I doubt they will understand if I explain I have to rely on TAPS.
The next frustration is this: My dad informs me today (after months of being very supportive in me going back to school) that me wanting to go to med school is a "delusion of grandeur" or a "Grandiose Episode". And informs me that I have been doing much better, but now I am walking that fine line between doing "bad enough to still need disability and good enough to be cut off"......
I wonder, in the opinions surrounding us here- is it unrealistic for a 27 year old to have a goal of getting into med school? All I have ever wanted to do is be a doctor.............. and my entire life I was told I can't, because of grades--- but now it seems a possibility, unless I am completely delusional and not thinking straight......... maybe I am in some grandiose episode and just won't admit it.
The point is, I am super frustrated and quite possibly on the verge of tears. My hubby is basically being non-supportive, and the best friend I do have- isn't answering his phone right now.
Thanks for listening....... any thoughts are welcome.
Mel