Not only that, and Nebula I am in no way discrediting you or saying you have not been healed. I believe that if you believe it, it is true. Sometimes it really is mind over matter. But, Borderlines are very hard to treat and no one can be sure the meds actually help with it... and mixed with depression, sometimes they can go for months or years and feel normal or fine. So, once someone is diagnosed as borderline, they usually don't get a clean bill of health because like a lot of mental disabilities (I don't know if that is the PC term so I am sorry if I got it wrong) there is no real "cure." My mom has to deal with these kids in her school. And she has to deal with the paperwork, too. So she knows a lot about all the mental and chemical things that cause this.