Tomorrow will be two years since that awful night when I came home from work and found Sebastian with his right leg caught in the mini blinds, possibly trying to escape the pain since he was dying, and I freed him and 15 seconds later he died in my arms; he had been sick, but we didn't think it was his time to leave us, but it was, and as horrible as it was to come home to that time has taken away a lot of it's sting of the memory of that night, and I am actually glad that he literally hung on and waited for me to come home so I could hold him one last time, he did not die alone and for that I am grateful, and even though it is easy to have the mind want to slip back and relive that night and those days, I just last night let it happen, like I often tell others on here who are grieving "whatever you are feeling go with it", and it seems to purge out of my system faster if I do that rather than try to repress it. But I also don't dwell on it because I know he is happy and healthy again, he was freed from his pain in his Earthly life and is great now, and 3 months later he helped send me my Angel boy Sylvester who looks like Sebastian (black Chantilly) and Simon (tuxedo) combined, they live with us still through him and in our hearts and memories, and are never really gone....
November 19th 2015 I joined this site asking questions about his illness, 4 days later he was gone, but the kindness and love and compassion that I received on here has made me stay and hopefully help others in the acute stages of grief, when you feel like you also will die and don't really care if you do, and to tell everyone "yes, it hurts like hell, and takes time to get over, but you will feel better albeit ever so slowly". Sometimes, kind words can help more than anyone can ever imagine, and I thank you all once again for 2 years ago helping me.
Rest in Peace "Sea bass", daddy knows that you are fine and happy now, and thank you for sending me Sylvester, we love you.....
November 19th 2015 I joined this site asking questions about his illness, 4 days later he was gone, but the kindness and love and compassion that I received on here has made me stay and hopefully help others in the acute stages of grief, when you feel like you also will die and don't really care if you do, and to tell everyone "yes, it hurts like hell, and takes time to get over, but you will feel better albeit ever so slowly". Sometimes, kind words can help more than anyone can ever imagine, and I thank you all once again for 2 years ago helping me.
Rest in Peace "Sea bass", daddy knows that you are fine and happy now, and thank you for sending me Sylvester, we love you.....